I noticed it was Community not Center just after I sent that (so clever).
I am out of state, I would be interested in what I have to do to have it waived for the next series of trainings. Please let me know what I can do. I won’t fill out the survey as I don’t really feel well enough experienced with where you work and experience a majority of the time to give an accurate expression in words to the community there. I’m fond of the words trauma and connection and community, so ‘trauma connection community’, but yeah, probably not so marketable.
You’re welcome. Thanks for responding.
-Nik
I have felt the same way, and yet, it still feels incredibly lonely after this repel/rebel for some reason where I am. I needed to read this all the same.
Hey, wait a sec. Don’t you work at the ‘Recovery’ learning center? Sketchy title….(smiley face emoticon)
No, love your writing Sera! I have MUCH to unlearn, I still am in victim mentality consistently and sadly only have here to come and books I find through folks here (mainly here, recently plowed through what I could of Rational Suicide, Irrational Law, felt incredibly validated and acknowledged in the Conclusion section at the end of chapters and the last couple chapters in full I could muddle through). Lawyer speech is so dense though.
I also had to stop going to AA because of the modality of speech there and not feeling aligned in my ‘big feelings’ that I would have in others’ shares (haven’t been back in 2 years) but still don’t want to drink after not doing so for 24 years, but I don’t believe in what the literature taught me anymore about ‘why I drank’ and ‘alcoholism’. “In my recovery…” Hear it ALL THE TIME and ‘we’re as sick as our secrets’…it DOESN’T STOP.
Similarly, while listening at our Hearing Voices meeting here, and I agree that I cannot have others ‘control’ their speech, sadly, many who participate are not yet ready to listen to 99% of what you speak about in our group.
I missed the deadline in your Alternatives to Suicide training and cannot afford it if it requires money for the training anyway. Just appreciate all that I learn through you. I was especially drawn to your 3 part series on suicide in your blog. More recommendations are welcome!
Thank you for your views!
Again, this ‘tone’ brought up feelings and the story I experienced with The Process Institute and maybe I need to ‘open the dialogue’ with them again. But, I must say I don’t feel any power in speaking with them and don’t feel confident in this. They let me know the ‘answer’ was they would no longer allow counseling sessions to take place via Skype with people who have not graduated from their graduate program level of counseling. That was the ‘answer’ and ‘solution’ but simply not for me. To say my belief in ‘help’ that I can afford has been shanghaied is putting it lightly in terms of where I can go in this paradigm I have so been drawn into, and most especially from what has been described so concisely in Sera’s writings. I learn so much from her in what I am still trying to unlearn from my place of definitely still feeling a victim of the system and AA for that matter (24 years clean) yet still feel I’m not ‘recovering’ or ‘recovered’ in my ‘ism. Haven’t been back for over a year now. Big feelings? You bet. Better not to go where I am not heard? You bet, my feelings are too big there now and I have them all the time with what and how people express where they are… Sorry, off topic…but word slinging, not off topic.
A year ago this very thing happened to me when a student who just began graduate work at the Process Work Institute in Portland, OR had been counseling me via Skype and without investigation but citing her as being overwhelmed and unable to be my counselor anymore after 3 months I was ‘listened to’ by her instructors and given a response in email by the president of the school, and yet, the remaining ‘help’ was only that of people who I could not afford that were graduates of the graduate school. So, this happened IN a NEW paradigm of counseling. It does not only happen in the system. This has happened before as well (without naming names) by people in the paradigm that MIA subsists in, sadly, capitalism rules, still and nonetheless. This is via Skype counseling and to have connection of any kind in this paradigm shared here. I live in Iowa, so not a lot to go on here unless it is via Skype or phone in connection with a face and a voice.
I hear you and believe you and did feel your experience in how you expressed this here. Thank you robinwren217!
Thanks for this insight and comment, informative most def.
Thank you Sera.
Your calm resolve of truth lands in my heart with my own experience.
Childhood sexual abuse to how teachers physically and emotionally abused me in front of my class to how the medical and psychiatric system took my power away and my quality and clarity of self away.
THIS for 2 decades because of 3 months of believing diagnosis and institutionalization, drugging, along with forced drugging and physically being forced to be where I don’t want to be and not feel I have anywhere else to turn is STILL not allowed to be heard in my BIG EMOTIONS with this experience with family and friends who are no longer friends as well as counselors I have had and terminated because of their lack of understanding or compassion or space for hope and empowerment. Duh, suicidal feelings and thoughts.
Thanks Sera. If I could afford to move to be of service and know the experience of what I assume is consistent at RLC in Mass, I would move. Maybe I will visit someday.
I know you’re busy, but would love to know if/when you are speaking and can be heard elsewhere.
I am going back to EMDR as soon as I can, I did before, but this was stopped abruptly because I was being more triggered and it effected my ability to not react in the world even more. I want to continue moving forward with it though.
I will try to find the discussion forums here for more camaraderie , don’t do FB.
I appreciate your voice sincerely, your clarity.
Yes, I am swamped in the emotional despair I find myself (accountable for or not, depends who is the critic at the moment inside or outside of me). Thank you for acknowledging my pain.
Noel, I hear the humility and the fight against, and also the balance in that everyone is on their own journey. As refreshing as this is, and inclusive to those who want a safe open space now who find themselves here (them being ME mostly), being off SSRI’s for 6 years, but still not being allowed my anger for the 20 years being led to believe I am NOTHING without diagnosis and medication and the reassurance from the person doing the prescribing— IS A LOT OF ANGER. I have been sober 23 1/2 years, but AA isn’t a safe place to talk about THIS ANGER, and there’s no one at the meetings in my small college town to EXPRESS this, family does not accept this as well. So, where is there a safe office space with love an openness for THIS ANGER? I haven’t found it, and I’ve tried for the last 6 years with different counselors who take my insurance and are trauma based (the last wanted me back on medication, been stuck in trauma spirals with the others, just talk, talk, talk…for years, existence and survival). If my neurons are irreparably damaged from the 20 years of medications and then the psychological and emotional trauma of BELIEF that I NEEDED psychology’s help in order to NOT take my own life or end up back in an institution (which is STILL my terror) where do I go in poverty, confidence and self esteem at an all time low? Your voice is comforting. Where do we go from here? Too much, I know. Just thought I’d give it a shot with you.
I noticed it was Community not Center just after I sent that (so clever).
I am out of state, I would be interested in what I have to do to have it waived for the next series of trainings. Please let me know what I can do. I won’t fill out the survey as I don’t really feel well enough experienced with where you work and experience a majority of the time to give an accurate expression in words to the community there. I’m fond of the words trauma and connection and community, so ‘trauma connection community’, but yeah, probably not so marketable.
You’re welcome. Thanks for responding.
-Nik
I have felt the same way, and yet, it still feels incredibly lonely after this repel/rebel for some reason where I am. I needed to read this all the same.
Hey, wait a sec. Don’t you work at the ‘Recovery’ learning center? Sketchy title….(smiley face emoticon)
No, love your writing Sera! I have MUCH to unlearn, I still am in victim mentality consistently and sadly only have here to come and books I find through folks here (mainly here, recently plowed through what I could of Rational Suicide, Irrational Law, felt incredibly validated and acknowledged in the Conclusion section at the end of chapters and the last couple chapters in full I could muddle through). Lawyer speech is so dense though.
I also had to stop going to AA because of the modality of speech there and not feeling aligned in my ‘big feelings’ that I would have in others’ shares (haven’t been back in 2 years) but still don’t want to drink after not doing so for 24 years, but I don’t believe in what the literature taught me anymore about ‘why I drank’ and ‘alcoholism’. “In my recovery…” Hear it ALL THE TIME and ‘we’re as sick as our secrets’…it DOESN’T STOP.
Similarly, while listening at our Hearing Voices meeting here, and I agree that I cannot have others ‘control’ their speech, sadly, many who participate are not yet ready to listen to 99% of what you speak about in our group.
I missed the deadline in your Alternatives to Suicide training and cannot afford it if it requires money for the training anyway. Just appreciate all that I learn through you. I was especially drawn to your 3 part series on suicide in your blog. More recommendations are welcome!
Thank you for your views!
Again, this ‘tone’ brought up feelings and the story I experienced with The Process Institute and maybe I need to ‘open the dialogue’ with them again. But, I must say I don’t feel any power in speaking with them and don’t feel confident in this. They let me know the ‘answer’ was they would no longer allow counseling sessions to take place via Skype with people who have not graduated from their graduate program level of counseling. That was the ‘answer’ and ‘solution’ but simply not for me. To say my belief in ‘help’ that I can afford has been shanghaied is putting it lightly in terms of where I can go in this paradigm I have so been drawn into, and most especially from what has been described so concisely in Sera’s writings. I learn so much from her in what I am still trying to unlearn from my place of definitely still feeling a victim of the system and AA for that matter (24 years clean) yet still feel I’m not ‘recovering’ or ‘recovered’ in my ‘ism. Haven’t been back for over a year now. Big feelings? You bet. Better not to go where I am not heard? You bet, my feelings are too big there now and I have them all the time with what and how people express where they are… Sorry, off topic…but word slinging, not off topic.
A year ago this very thing happened to me when a student who just began graduate work at the Process Work Institute in Portland, OR had been counseling me via Skype and without investigation but citing her as being overwhelmed and unable to be my counselor anymore after 3 months I was ‘listened to’ by her instructors and given a response in email by the president of the school, and yet, the remaining ‘help’ was only that of people who I could not afford that were graduates of the graduate school. So, this happened IN a NEW paradigm of counseling. It does not only happen in the system. This has happened before as well (without naming names) by people in the paradigm that MIA subsists in, sadly, capitalism rules, still and nonetheless. This is via Skype counseling and to have connection of any kind in this paradigm shared here. I live in Iowa, so not a lot to go on here unless it is via Skype or phone in connection with a face and a voice.
I hear you and believe you and did feel your experience in how you expressed this here. Thank you robinwren217!
Thanks for this insight and comment, informative most def.
Thank you Sera.
Your calm resolve of truth lands in my heart with my own experience.
Childhood sexual abuse to how teachers physically and emotionally abused me in front of my class to how the medical and psychiatric system took my power away and my quality and clarity of self away.
THIS for 2 decades because of 3 months of believing diagnosis and institutionalization, drugging, along with forced drugging and physically being forced to be where I don’t want to be and not feel I have anywhere else to turn is STILL not allowed to be heard in my BIG EMOTIONS with this experience with family and friends who are no longer friends as well as counselors I have had and terminated because of their lack of understanding or compassion or space for hope and empowerment. Duh, suicidal feelings and thoughts.
Thanks Sera. If I could afford to move to be of service and know the experience of what I assume is consistent at RLC in Mass, I would move. Maybe I will visit someday.
I know you’re busy, but would love to know if/when you are speaking and can be heard elsewhere.
I am going back to EMDR as soon as I can, I did before, but this was stopped abruptly because I was being more triggered and it effected my ability to not react in the world even more. I want to continue moving forward with it though.
I will try to find the discussion forums here for more camaraderie , don’t do FB.
I appreciate your voice sincerely, your clarity.
Yes, I am swamped in the emotional despair I find myself (accountable for or not, depends who is the critic at the moment inside or outside of me). Thank you for acknowledging my pain.
Noel, I hear the humility and the fight against, and also the balance in that everyone is on their own journey. As refreshing as this is, and inclusive to those who want a safe open space now who find themselves here (them being ME mostly), being off SSRI’s for 6 years, but still not being allowed my anger for the 20 years being led to believe I am NOTHING without diagnosis and medication and the reassurance from the person doing the prescribing— IS A LOT OF ANGER. I have been sober 23 1/2 years, but AA isn’t a safe place to talk about THIS ANGER, and there’s no one at the meetings in my small college town to EXPRESS this, family does not accept this as well. So, where is there a safe office space with love an openness for THIS ANGER? I haven’t found it, and I’ve tried for the last 6 years with different counselors who take my insurance and are trauma based (the last wanted me back on medication, been stuck in trauma spirals with the others, just talk, talk, talk…for years, existence and survival). If my neurons are irreparably damaged from the 20 years of medications and then the psychological and emotional trauma of BELIEF that I NEEDED psychology’s help in order to NOT take my own life or end up back in an institution (which is STILL my terror) where do I go in poverty, confidence and self esteem at an all time low? Your voice is comforting. Where do we go from here? Too much, I know. Just thought I’d give it a shot with you.