What a nightmare. I’m so sorry for your experience. Since you found your way to this site, hopefully you’ve also found your way to resources that can help you recover from the excruciating side effects of the pharmaceutical torture inflicted on you. I wasn’t sure from your piece whether you’re off all meds or still in the process of tapering, but it’s good that you recognize the source of your current disability. Clearly your mom has no understanding of what’s going on but – what about your husband? your close friends? I hope you have at least one person in real life who understands, believes & can support you; a social media support group can be helpful but it’s not enough. It’s amazing how much damage can be inflicted in the course of a single year (June 2020 to now!) – but at the same time, because it was a year, not a decade, I think you do have a good chance of recovery. It will be like recovering from any kind of traumatic brain injury, slow & steady with occasional backslides. Thank you for sharing your experience here and best wishes to you as you heal. Regarding insomnia: there are a number of non-pharmaceutical aids for that, as well as cbd oil under the tongue (legal where I live but maybe not in Kuala Lumpur), but one other thing that often helps is reading a vivid short story immediately before bed. It primes your brain for restful dreams.