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Electroconvulsive – just sounds so bad. How can convulsive be therapy, never mind the electro bit?
To know is not to know
As I said, as an LSD tester in the lab, the drug does does lead to full kundalini chakra release- full realization of universal consciousness, but this requires about 6 months of ingestion for the body/mind to adapt- to get beyond the surface visuals/euphoria/illusions. The alternative – the natural way- took me around 5 years through chakra yoga with the help of a highly skilled swami.
I used to be a tester in Amsterdam for an LSD lab to get the visuals or euphoria levels right and to do that my qualification was that I tripped for over a year with a friend of mine, so that my mind/body had adapted to the drug. We got to the point where we could take very large amounts, we used to chew on a card of 100 trips. So were ingesting around 10-15 at a time every day. We developed the ability to telepathically communicate via chakra openings. I learnt this was the case because in later years I spent 10 years learning chakra yoga and the affects are the same, the opening of the chackras to release kundalini.
Acid is a shortcut to releasing kundalini, but it needs about a year of ingestion to adapt to functioning in the world without the visuals or euphoria inhibiting your ability to cope/adapt, so that other people don’t realize what you are doing. We then moved onto IVing pure acid- from operation julie, blue mikes from Wales, acid which was wonderful. This chemist really knew his stuff. It felt like having a warm shower, a max out trip in less than 60 seconds, no throat problems, with bliss being quickly achieved.
We also went to Wales a place called Ruthin were psyilocibin semilanceata were grown on the mountains and we worked up to a trip which involved ingesting these mushrooms for over 30 minutes. It was difficult to estimate the volume but I reckon we swallowed around 2-3 thousand fresh with water.
The only struggle was that my friend said he had seen enough in this incarnation, to move on and fell forward over a 400 foot drop. He held out his arms and was going to drop but I was able to hold his waist and pull him back. I then burst into tears and said no, no my dear friend not now. He was 22 years old.
After we came back he was admitted to a psych ward and called a schizophrenic for 9 months. When I visited him he was sitting in the lotus position and just said: there are no reference points. I held his hand and said: you go well now.
He was released after a year and we never too these drugs again. He is now a priest and I’m sane.
I think these drugs can do good but they are very wild…go well
the use of street drugs can mimic any mental disorder.
Can you tell us about your experience of street drugs Robert? What actually qualifies you to write anything about these issues- how much money are you earning, to just spew out this crap and spin the literature- yawn.
MIA please – stop people like this from posting, they need to pass some kind of insight test, rather than just bs spin world… cmon … editors?
conceptualizing psychological concepts through a “complex” approach involves understanding natural processes that co-occur, forming a cluster connected by an underlying causal force. This relationship is probabilistic, not deterministic, and the features of these properties aggregate in imperfect, inconsistent ways.
This is funny, imagine telling this crap to a person who’s broke, alone, lost, homeless and has given up trying to cope in this world? This is the worst kind of gobbledygook I’ve read in ages- get out of your universities and help people on the streets, or do somin that might help another person, rather than intellectually wanking…
This is good, it is the most profound insight, everything you question, is right to question. The struggle is how deep insight is perceived. Generally profound insight is seen as insane because it generates anxiety- the most profound insight is channeled through the unconscious. It is given as a gift but it can be more prolific if you follow tried and tested paths, like Theravada or japa mantra’s such as: OM MANI PADME HUM.
Zen Koans help too and realising that language is generally hopeless to understand, at this level, what is going on. Steven you have reached quite a deep mindset- I don’t know why, but I want to say: let go. Don’t think anymore
U go well now and shine on
You mean well Liz but its beginning to suk, call it- catnight has it right…
How much do u earn btw?
Shine on – sending good vibes
With the madness you are talking about personal or social invalidation that exceed thresholds of coping. People have mad making experiences, people aren’t driven or go mad because they’ve drunk too much soda- lol.
I liked this Liz, then you said:
In addition, there are other conditions, like leaky gut, which allow toxins to enter the brain, and wreak havoc with clear thinking. For me, madness is a toxic brain, not a psychological problem.
Doh – I thought we were beyond blaming the brain in MIA…
Those who are properly nourished have the raw materials to create the neurotransmitters they need for brain function. Is this illogical?
People are screwed over by inequality, poverty and injustice- not neurotransmitters. So what u r saying is illogical. Oh Liz… don’t blame the brain- learn that context and experience is everything.
My mentor was a psychoanalyst of over 50 years and in the end he said that healing seems to happen if you:
Are authentically interested in the person
Are tender and kind
Realize that people have to find their own way forward
I did wonder what a normal job was?
I also thought the term: ‘recovery’ was now out of fashion- in the bin- as it’s been co-opted by shrinks? Blah…
Your story is one of the most moving and insightful pieces I’ve ever read- you could you write a book, go back and work through the whole journey. You have an amazing ability to grip the reader I was totally immersed in your story. Thank you and go well- shine on 🙂
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Surely with this amount of brain scanning they will find the cure- lol. But if they don’t, which they won’t, will the powers to be wake up?
We need people to be emotionally motivated to pursue their own healing, growth and recovery rather than being dragged by us into doing what we think is good for them.
You need people-agree, you do to justify your salary? How much do you earn, as a shrink? There are bits of this that seem authentic but its just another shrink, spinning off some humanistic stuff – trying to be insightful – yawn
Recovery is in the bin, co-opted by shrinks…
Too much thinking, too much construction- language and concepts are hopeless. It’s arguable that we ‘understand’ anything. The best thing is try and accept uncertainty creatively, study the Taoists and Buddhists- particularly Tibetan schools who have been practicing for thousands of years with the aim of ‘not knowing’
I do admire this piece, it’s wonderfully crafted- intellectually and descriptively brilliant, but it is quite: ‘on the surface’ much more depth and golden silence is needed.
This koan might be helpful:
To know is not to know- Tzu
Yoga is cool and no one has posted, so just one from me to say – good stuff 🙂
I lived in a therapeutic community for 2 years and had lots of talking therapy and group work so I could figure out my emotions (what had happened to me) and begin to get some sense of identity and build confidence slowly. The staff were nice, warm and would listen, so people could feel safe there and get better. We didn’t take any medication…
So maybe they could do that in this hospital- listen to people and treat them kindly 🙂
This guy is a good and authentic psychologist, although the words ‘psychologist’ need exploring- words r generally hopeless- maybe japa mantra is better:
OM MANI PADME HUM
Resignation is often a weak tactic. People are merely politly ignored while those in power carry on.
Just wondering how much a dissenting shrink would cost tax payers over forty years with that big fat pension n all- how much do u have Niall for your ‘career’? The tie looks cool…
This is great but some is TLDR. Can we just say: stop blaming the brain?
TLDR all of it, but to retain your values, surely resignation is in order…
We need to change our whole culture’s understanding of madness…
Ye – good luck with that…
This story is not surprising or anything ‘new’ just think of all those thousands of people who were lobotomized and became zombies, that really sucked, but the passion of a psychologist that has this much care and insight for people is unusual and good. If I end up going mad again I would want this psychologist on my side…
I read the pdf and to me this stuff seems useful. If I’d had support around what happened to me, instead of being asked what was wrong with me or being talked at, it would have helped.