Tuesday, January 31, 2023

Comments by Ruined and pissed

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  • I probably repeated myself. But this isn’t a life worth living. I wish they’d stop making up excuses and try to actually help me.

  • If you ruin my life and blame it on me, you’re a horrible person. I don’t give a shit what your intention was.

  • I hate them, it’s bullshit. My cognitive problems and occasional hallucinations are due to brain damage. I got myself in the fucking neck. And the sexual dysfunction appeared immediately after Prozac. Fuck them, they just want me to shut up.

  • They did this to me and knew it was a possibility. And they refuse to do anything about it. The least I deserve is assisted suicide.

  • My life has been destroyed. I have brain damage and pssd, and I just get mocked by the general public, and labeled schizophrenic by doctors. The sexual problems appeared immediately after taking Prozac. And the hallucinations immediately after a brain injury. What the fuck are the odds they aren’t related? Why do people act like the reason for this shit is I’m schizophrenic??? Or delusional. Me not being able to physically feel my own body is a delusion.

  • Never let anyone convince you that you’re less important than others, and should just shut up and continue as a sacrifice.

  • And there appear to be a lot of idiots who seem to think it’s a good idea to ignore people like me because it might prevent people from getting “help”. As well as people who would rather research shit that doesn’t really matter instead of actually helping people.

  • People are god awful. Have your life ruined, and somehow it’s your fault. And it doesn’t matter. You were never deserving a normal life anyway. All you deserved was torment and to be made into a joke. But they’re the real jokes. They act like they know literally everything there is to know, while admitting they don’t at the same exact time. And they tell teenagers to just deal with the life ruining shit that they did to them.

  • I had some social problems and was depressed, but I could have had a normal life with some effort. Now there’s no chance, it’s over. And to them, it’s all my fault. It’s just me. I magically changed the function of my body, it wasn’t the drugs they gave me. And I should just get over it. There’s nothing wrong with doing this to a 17 year old. No one to relate to, no one who cares. People actually can’t understand why this is a problem.

  • Words can’t describe how much I hate them. I can’t think, I can’t feel, I want to die. It’s not me. They try to blame everything on me. And I don’t consider the hallucinations I’ve had schizophrenia. They appeared after I hit myself in the neck out of frustration. It was a stupid thing to do, but it was after years of this shit. I’ve thought about killing myself in front of a doctor who denies this shit just to traumatize them. Preferably the one who did this to me. Wouldn’t be as bad as what I’ve been through, but hopefully it would be.

  • I view doctors as unethical cowards for the most part. Accurate or not, they shaped my view and are doing absolutely nothing to change it.

  • I have no one in my life who cares. Few people believe me, and if they do they think it’s not a big deal. I was 17 years old. It’s sucked all of the joy out of my life and replaced it with anger and despair. I’ve tried again and again to get someone to listen, someone in the medical field to actually do something about it. To make it a priority of theirs, but it never is. And it’s not “just” pssd now either, it’s my brain. They don’t care about that either, I’m just labeled mentally ill. I see no way out, other than suicide. I’ve tried to keep hope that they’ll eventually care, but they don’t. I’ve been too fearful of it, but I’m not sure how much longer that’ll continue.

  • In a hotel room, by myself. Not quite how I want to die. And please do remove this article. It just makes things worse for me, and I’ve revealed even more information. It’s really not the type of thing I need on the fucking internet right now.

  • Or I might just die from something else. Pretty sure I’ve almost died recently. I don’t remember it well.

  • I didn’t really care about the danger. My life was awful and I had just had enough. I also couldn’t really sense it, even though I knew it was real. I don’t feel fear properly. I fear the wrong things. And I had experienced an amazing, unparalleled euphoria as a young teenager from anorexia that I wanted to feel again. There was just so much more to it than stupidity.

  • I’d also like to add that MRIs haven’t shown any of the brain damage that I have. You’re right, our technology and knowledge of medicine is certainly far from perfect.

  • I’m not sure exactly what was stated in this article, it’s been awhile and I don’t really want to read it. But yeah, even the urologist I saw at the Mayo clinic downplayed it. Not only do I have pssd, but I also have brain damage from the other drugs. I can’t think well anymore, can’t visualize, have a shitty memory, and have difficulty with speaking. I also seem to have developed schizophrenia as a result of it. It’s embarrassing, so I didn’t mention it before. It’s even more horrific than the article makes it seem. I definitely didn’t write it myself. Everyone blames this stuff on me. I should have known better. It’s not that I was a teenager who had his life ruined, I was just stupid. And I should have been the one who had a deep understanding of the drugs they prescribe. I don’t know what to do. I can’t even get them to remove this article. Still shows up when you Google my name. And it’s not like it’s really helped me at least, plus I believe I was experiencing some kind of mania for the first time when I decided to do this. And of course I have to deal with assholes who think this all funny. People are stupid and morally weak. They’ve actually made me their enemy, lol.

  • I should have tried something like that instead. But unfortunately I just made things worse by giving myself brain damage. Few people care and no significant research is being done. I really do think I’m going to kill myself because of all of this.

  • I’m not sure what you mean by that, but unfortunately this isn’t due to any known vitamin/hormone deficiencies.