I’m sorry you’ve been through so much adversity. There’s nothing worse than having your health be damaged, and there are many possibilities for it too. I think I developed a lifetime of substance dependency, and I do believe I still have an underlying health condition that continually makes me feel the need for something to “feel better” Is it possible your symptoms and damage to your nervous system are from a wider array of psych meds in addition to the benzo and an undiscovered underlying health condition? Everything we ingest in our bodies, through our airways and skin has potential to cause damage, including our food & water supply. It’s a struggle, but keep doing the best you can, I applaud you for testifying to increase legislation to restrict benzo-adminstration. Let’s keep the fight going and may our Almighty Creator reveal and heal your medical condition.