Wednesday, July 8, 2020

Comments by Pudsey

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  • hi Laura,

    I cannot thank you enough for your article! I have been having suicidal thoughts on and off for the last 20 years. For the last 5 I have merely been waiting for my DIY termination. After reading your piece I had the sudden realisation that I am absolutely terrified of mentioning my suicide to anybody. Firstly, it would make the people close to me pretty much crack, and secondly, as you pointed out in a most articulate and interesting way, I would be punished for it.

    I have just read the RW pdf and find it highly compelling evidence. Problem is, not only are my anti-depressants SSRI but so are my anti-psychotics. I am now planning to get off the ADs, but as a schizophrenic feel I might still need help from the APs. I react badly to other kinds of APs.

    Despite this drawback yours are the first words of wisdom that have given me any hope whatsoever that I will not eventually kill myself, and that I may be capable of living in a way where I am not just waiting to die. You have given me, for the first time in 5 years, something which actually feels worth while DOING!

    I will now talk about my feelings. If they incarcerate me for it I will not keep quiet. If they’re upset that’s fair enough, but it hurts me more than it hurts them!

    Many thanks and more. I think you are border-lining on genius, not madness!