Lilla – i’ll stay out of the debate on the rightness or wrongness. TBH, i’m not sure. i believe in Jesus – but really try to avoid all the baggage assumed by the word Christian. i know you don’t, and my trying to slap that on you would just make you angry – which makes sense. but i guess i imagine it took a tsunami of pain to get you (anyone) to the point where taking one’s own life is an option. No judgment or advice from my side. But i just want to acknowledge your pain. i hope you find peace in this life, and in the next, if there is one. If there’s anything this sad old world can do to convince you to stick around – please let me know. Anyways, take care – you are a beautiful person.