Hi Rebekah, “feigning sanity”. It IS what your shrink does too. And so every few years you become insane? And then, would you stay stuck insane? Forever? What you do need is community of like minded, or at least people that get you and help you feel safer. That is a good alternative to the people who are in the mental health industry. Life is not perfect bodies that perform with ease and perfection according to someone’s definition, and those bodies are not ill, or sick. You are curious about why you can’t be like those normals. There are people who are curious why they can’t run like others. A doctor would simply tell them that is just how you are, that they are not sick.