What you were saying elsewhere about just writing, not necessarily knowing what was generating the words… Anybody who [really] writes much is going to approach that mode from time to time. It’s “you”, making the words and thinking the thoughts as you go along… and it’s also (at least on the edges of) something sacred at work beyond the horizon of your ‘normal’ state. People live between Heaven & Earth; we don’t do well if we lose touch with either. Try poetry (if you haven’t.) That’s about metaphor & connections, understanding things by the networks of analogy & relation between them. The better you can do that consciously — or at least, consciously negotiate matters between ‘you’ and the processes at work — the less chance of them whacking you unexpectedly.