Friday, September 24, 2021

Comments by Mad In Vermont

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  • They can see changes and differences in brains, but they can’t say how those changes came about. Falling in love changes the brain, family problems change the brain. And when they drug a brain they see those changes also. The problem is that drugs damage brains and while they make people feel different and often have a placebo effect that can alleviate distress, drugs do not fix “broken brains.”

  • It’s a character defect of mine that keeps me talking back even tho I know it’s futile. This is the comment I submitted:

    I am a survivor of sexual violence throughout my early childhood. I have no credentials and no conflicts of interest. I recently won a lawsuit against Astra-Zeneca on account of their antipsychotic drug, quetiapine, which caused my diabetes.:

    I have a blog called Mad In Vermont:

    where I talk about psychiatric abuse.

    I understand that this is a call for responses about the antipsychotic class of drugs. I was prescribed quetiapine for sleep in December 2001. By February 2002 I had gained 40 pounds and developed type ll diabetes. The data are in my medical record, which was used as evidence in the lawsuit brought by Weitz and Luxenberg. This is my personal experience and therefore necessarily anecdotal in nature.

    In 1985, I was offered psychiatric chemicals by a general practitioner who thought I looked tired. I was suing my father for incest and raising 2 small children by myself. I did have a physiological condition, in that I was hyper-responsive to stimuli in the wake of surviving 16 years of intimate violence. But, this condition was little understood and barely acknowledged at the time and the doctor decided I had a chemical imbalance in my brain that was causing fatigue. He began to experiment on me with a changing combination of chemicals, which never alleviated the “depression” and instead made me unable to function or think. Instead of stopping the drugs when they were obviously making me sicker, causing thyroid and other endocrine problems, and worsening “psychiatric symptoms” I was given new diagnoses and more drugs at higher doses.

    In consequence of ingesting the chemical quetiapine I developed hypothyroidism, high blood fat, bladder muscle spasm, dyskinesia in my upper back, diabetes, cataracts, damage to my limbic system, memory problems, information processing problems, and executive functioning problems.

    Since stopping all behavior-control chemicals, I mean psychiatric medications, the endocrine and metabolic imbalances have rebalanced, which proves that the derangements were CAUSED BY THE DRUGS and not my bad lifestyle, which was always the implication. Unfortunately the brain and muscle damage are more difficult to heal and the cataracts are still in place.

    There are good non-drug interventions for post-trauma aftereffects, which mostly involve working one on one with a trusted human being. When I finally saw through the drug lie I was able to stop the drugs in a long and painful discontinuation period and then to access appropriate therapy. This therapy has also helped me to cope with the neurological damage quetiapine did to my brain and neuromuscular system. Whatever happened to the medical dictum, First Do No Harm?

  • Judith Hermann, MD, who wrote “Trauma and Recovery” has a discussion in the book of the forgiveness idea. She says that forgiveness is between the abuser and THEIR higher power and I don’t have the power to grant or deny forgiveness to anyone. Not my job.

    I do work on releasing the repetitive thoughts that are the aftereffect of trauma. Obsession and preoccupation with the harm is what happens post trauma. It’s not a character defect or a spiritual flaw. Letting go of the resentment (re-feeling) is not the same as forgiveness. If adopting a spiritual practice reduces inner turmoil – then great! But this forgiveness thing is one more guilt trip I don’t need.

  • Hi, I just need to say that I have had experience working with peer centers and peer organizations and that I have found that it is vitally important to your mission exactly where your FUNDING comes from. Funding sources like State mental health departments, community mental health centers and Medicaid have very specific requirements about what your group is and is not allowed to do. The local “experimental” peer-run psychiatric survivor group here got a grant from the Department of MH and has had to adhere to the state’s agenda and has to provide assistance to homeless transients and to keep detailed records about diagnoses and treatments.

    And peers are just fallible human beings. Living thru unusual mental states doesn’t automatically make you a moral paragon. The original director at the peer center did something very improper, but because he owned the building the center was in no-one was able to force him to leave. The NEW director has been assiduous in getting funds from the state to improve the condition of the original director’s building. A real estate coup. But, unfortunately, the people in original support group are literally dying from the toxic treatments offered by psychiatry – and the corporate entity that is the state-funded program cannot fight back against the hand that is feeding it in order to protest the psychiatric holocaust. I am stepping over dead bodies while the peer center gets remodeled. Objects and property (and job security) became ascendent over the value of providing human support to traumatized people.

    Money ruined a perfectly good social change movement.

  • I finally found the courage to try massage therapy after some intensive trauma/attachment work. I had to be able to withstand the release of the memories in my muscles, had to have coping strategies for the intense sensations, before I could let ANYONE touch me. And I have neuropathy, on top of everything, from the neurochemical damage the drugs I was given for PTSD wreaked om my peripheral and sympathetic nervous systems. I think massage is actually helping heal the nerve damage. Wish the original general practitioner who seduced me into the drug nightmare had just signed me up for physical therapy and hot packs. I would have done whatever he said. Rape is a physical injury and well as a spiritual and moral one. Physical therapy helps. This culture just can’t stop blaming victims, though, so there is no comprehensive treatment for interpersonal abuse.

  • I’m pleased that you don’t see child rape as a problem. This means it didn’t happen to you. Children experimenting with each other is not what we’re discussing here, it is being held hostage by a person who is twice your size who has the power of life and death over you and uses you as a personal sex toy. You can’t say no. You can never escape. No-one believes you or will stop the rapes. And then you get caught by Big Med when you complain of emotional problems (or wind up in foster care) and get chemically raped on top of the physical and emotional torture. This is what I’m talking about.

  • I thought I would make a great peer specialist at my local community mental health center until I realized that the system is killing people with neurotoxins. The doctors nearly killed me with antidepressants and antipsychotics and benzos and I have seen many people being disabled a d outright killed by the drugs. So, no, I am not going to waste my skills & energy collecting information on psychiatric guinea pigs for Medicaid and supporting people’s “right” to be poisoned by behavior control chemicals.It’s like being a Jew working in a concentration camp, keeping the inmates in line so they don’t bother the Capos. Maybe I can get them some more peas in their soup, or an extra service from their caseworker.

  • There are therapies for treating trauma now that didn’t exist 30 years ago. The Women’s Movement (remember that?) helped to open up a dialog about child rape and that put a chink in our massive wall of denial about interpersonal violence against women and children. It’s been devilishly difficult to get help for a condition that doctors refused to believe even existed, i.e. complex trauma from childhood rape and battery. In 1970 the understanding about incest (child rape) was that it was a one in a million occurrence. Brave women and male victims of abuse spoke up and now we know that this abuse is entrenched in the enculturation of children to their roles in a power-over-others society, where the powerful prey on the weak.

    The main benefit of therapies such as sensorimotor training is that they help people re-establish trust in their own bodies and in the person who has the skill to assist them in the reconnection process. It is said that trauma victims do not have memories, we have “symptoms.” The best thing we can do for ourselves and for each other is to be fully present in the moment with the entire range of human feeling, to listen to our bodies and to the people in our lives who are suffering.

    It is sad, though that we have to have statistical evidence from double-blind trials, MRI’s of people’s brains and blood chemistry profiles of stress hormones before we can accept that battering and molesting children might tend to impair their ability to cope with stress as adults. I guess this is the kind of evidence that the shrinks, as men of science, need to have before they stop blaming the victim’s brains, labeling them as diseased and poisoning them with behavior-control chemicals.

  • Oh, and I did not become disabled and chronic and unable to support myself until AFTER I was labeled and poisoned. The GP who identified me as a source of profit for Big Med also pressured me to drug my child. What kind of arrogance and alienation must a person have to give neurotoxins to developing children and not see the damage to their bodies and souls? I saw the damage and I took her off the drugs after a few weeks. She has permanent endocrine damage. Teach kids how to manage their stress. Change the schools and parenting, not children’s bodies. Don’t maim the foot to fit a broken shoe.

  • Vincent Van Gogh was not bipolar. He was alcoholic. He suffered from wet brain. How many “creative” people in the past acted crazy because they drank too much? I told my GP I had a problem with mood-altering substances, that I tended to self-medicate my unhealed rape trauma, and he said, “Oh, my wife is an alcoholic and I prescribe her these drugs. They are absolutely NOT addictive.” It took me 5 years to discontinue the neurotoxins compared to a few days to detox from alcohol. Psychiatric behavior-control chemicals are simply legal, forced addiction.

  • I was divorced,on Medicaid and suing my parent for incest when I was labeled and poisoned with behavioral-control chemicals by a general practitioner. He convinced me that my 9 year old daughter had the same genetic disorder that I had and that in order to be a good mother it was my responsibility to treat her congenital chemical imbalance with prozac. This was in 1992, way before any approval of these chemicals for pediatric use. I did not understand that Medicaid was paying for this uninformed human experimentation on poor women and their children. Prozac made her feel bad so I defied the doctor and didn’t force her to consume the poison. But, it has had a permanent effect on her metabolism and I feel responsible for this chemical rape of my baby.

  • I meant “uninformed” because the doctors randomly prescribed the behavior chemicals and learned from their mistakes on my disposable Medicaid-funded body. But “uniformed” is also apt, since the intent was to force me into uniform behavior, so that I would accept my oppression quietly. I was LUCKY to have been massively overprescribed Paxil, because the resulting toxic psychosis forced me to examine the lies. There was never anything “wrong” with me that fresh air, sunshine and human contact could not ameliorate. Instead of human care for the effects of the trauma I suffered as a rape victim, I was offered stigma and neurotoxins.

  • Survivor of Brain Rape. Thanks for this term. Drug Merchants colonized my brain. Just like any other rape, the intent is to kill the soul of the victim and render them amenable to exploitation. I was a zombie when I was ingesting these poisons. It was all “off-label”, it was all uniformed experimentation. It was all about making money.

  • Eeeewww! I am not territory. I am not a commodity. I will never be a peer collaborator with Big Med. The essential point is that psychiatry is a BUSINESS selling PRODUCTS. Compassion is not a product. If you are selling your compassion, then you are just another kind of whore.

  • All caps is good. We need to yell because they have some kind of hearing problem. My diagnosis seems to cause deafness in MH workers. I’m thinking attending Bob’s talk at Central Vt Med Center tonight and carrying a sign saying “Paxil gave me toxic psychosis” and “seroquel gave me diabetes” and “lithium killed my friend” My diagnosis also seems to render me invisible.

  • Um, just because you can test for a learning difference doesn’t mean that there is a chemical to fix that difference. And of course the intense focus effect of the stimulant wears off with habituation. Don’t have handy links…I think they are on this site, about the fall off of effectiveness of these chemicals. All stimulants have the same effect on the endocrine system and brain whether it’s coffee, crank, ecstasy, or ritalin. And then there’s the cumulative damage to the brain and heart. Change the teaching and the parenting, not children’s brains and bodies. Don’t maim the foot to fit a broken shoe.

  • It’s a drag that we antipharma activists have to struggle to make the point with each individual psychiatric chemical that there is no physical disease or deficiency that is healed by drugs that work by damaging the brain. All of the behavior control chemicals are toxic to the brain.

    My opinion is that all drugs should be legal and freely available. The responsibility for informing people who choose to take these chemicals to alter themselves rests with the makers and distributors of these substances.

    The following paragraph is reprinted from my blog, where I am discussing the hypocrisy of psychiatric peers in paid positions having to remain “medication neutral” with respect to someone’s choice to control their pain with corporate chemicals, and yet demonize a peer who controls his symptoms with marijuna:

    “The truth is that all drugs are morally neutral and that our drugs laws are about the corporate ownership of healthcare and profit for these gangsters and not about protecting us from evil drug-crazed villains. There are no “good” drugs that heal and “bad” drugs that kill. The problem is never the object or chemical or behavior that is addictive, it is the pain of the addict that is out of control. And I have no easy answers for that problem.”