Tuesday, August 16, 2022

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  • Psychiatry is dangerous quackery – a pseudoscience: i.e., a non-science that purports to be a science (by definition).

    Definition: The natural sciences are sets of methodologies that reliably lead to the acquisition of empirical knowledge (a-posteriori) about some phenomenon of nature.

    A field of science (per se) is a set of methodologies that reliably lead to the acquisition of empirical knowledge (a-posteriori). Not only is psychiatry not a natural science, but it is no science at all.

    Psychiatry has no scientific theory, only mere hypotheses that have consistently failed to be confirmed. With no science to back up their empty claims their profession’s own scientific pretensions, it has only force, no legitimate authority on medicine, health of any kind – be it mental or otherwise, and bears no relationship to science, or its practice, or its method: a non-science which purports to be a science (i.e., the definition of a pseudoscience).

    Psychiatrists engage in introducing dysgenics into society. Psychiatry as a profession indoctrinates & brainwashes the public, family members of their targets, as well as media, politicians, schools & universities. Long-term, maintenance, and/or preventative use of neuroleptics is contraindicated by the best available scientific evidence: = knowledgebase that is secure: from reliable sources and from trustworthy people. Drugging a person with a neuroleptic for treating a psychiatric disorder is pseudoscientific experimentation whether done with the consent of the person or without (particularly against the will of he so treated).

    Psychiatry is a fraudulent profession of charlatans, who pretend to be doctors and fancy themselves being engaged in a medical science, whose job description is to systematically violate the rights of their victims. Psychiatry’s neurotransmitter hypotheses of mental illness are hoaxes. Psychiatrists routinely commit fraud and perpetrate injustice towards their clients, torture them, cause intentional infliction of emotional distress (pain and suffering), engage in gross scientific misconduct, unethical & immoral conduct, unfortunately consistent with the mainstream practice of the psychiatric profession

    I do not buy into psychiatry’s scientific pretensions. I reject the medical model of mental illness in favour of the bio-psycho-social model, disease model of antipsychotic drug action (dishonest even if true, no evidence that it is true, yet psychiatrists are permitted to lobotomize people supposedly in the name of the public good. The public has been sold a false narrative of the science of psychiatric drugs, psychiatrists are not required to justify their decisions and actions, there is no oversight whatsoever on how psychiatrists destroy the mental and bodily health of their targets: what harm they cause, how inefficacious (i.e., ineffective) they treatments are, psychiatry is a pseudoscientific profession of pretend mind doctors who have deluded themselves into thinking that they can cure schizophrenia (inconsistently, intentionally vaguely and overbroadly defined as to cast the widest net possible to target people for treatment), engage in systematically depriving people of their constitutionally protected human and civil rights, engage in libel, slander, defamation of character just by virtue of labeling people with that stigmatizing pseudo-medical jargon “schizophrenia”, diagnosis is stigmatization by virtue of which a person becomes subject to psychiatric slavery, kidnapping, and human trafficking, not to mention brain disabling neurotoxic treatments, ineffective and counterproductive for their very indication, psychiatric interventions in the name of treatment and under the guise of a scientifically valid and medically sound medical specialty of science, psychiatric treatment practices are contraindicated by the best available scientific evidence in the appropriate scientific research literature, psychiatry is not a scientific authority brain health – neurology is. Psychiatry does not possess any legitimate expertise in the area of mental or physical health, psychiatrists are not scientific authorities on brain diseases. They are not even legitimate authorities of their own unsubstantiated neurotransmitter hypotheses of mental illness.

    Science & ethics are on my side, only the law & force are on theirs. The best-available scientific evidence supports my positions over theirs; moreover, they do not even have any credible evidence at all for theirs, let alone clear and convincing evidence (which is what would be required in medicine, as it is in medicine in general).

    Mental illnesses are not demonstrable, real brain diseases but metaphorical ones. Psychiatric disorders (i.e., “mental illnesses”) are not real medical diseases but rather sociological constructions. No mental illness has been demonstrated to be identical to be caused by a brain disease process (pathology), lesion, or abnormality of any kind whatsoever (ex., bio-chemical imbalance). Mental illness is neither testable (in principle) nor falsifiable (in practice) and thus does not fall under the purview of science and thereby excludes itself from scientific discourse altogether.

    The diagnostic process of psychiatry is highly subjective, frivolous, arbitrary, and contingent on interpretation, which makes it necessarily subjective, because it depends on the psychiatrist’s opinions. The psychiatric definitions of mental illness, as defined by the DSM, are vague and overbroad so much so as to cast the widest possible net to target people for psychiatric enslavement.

    Their hypotheses of mental illness are unsubstantiated: have consistently failed to be confirmed. The theoretic entities of psychiatry are bogus, their conceptualizations of mental illness and what makes people “mentally ill” are ill-formed, fallacious, cognitively biased, and are not supported by scientific evidence. Their research findings suffer from systematic error: ex., confirmation bias and refusing to publish studies with unfavourable outcomes: counting only the hits and disregarding the misses.

    Psychiatry is a fraudulent profession of conscious liars and charlatans, delusional pretend doctors that have the hubris to have identified the very molecule that causes mental illness (dopamine in the case of schizophrenia and serotonin in the case of depression): yet science does not support either case. Psychiatry is not something worth reforming, it is something rotten to its core that needs to be abolished, overcome, and surpassed by civilized societies.

    Every single mental illness or disorder presented in the diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (DSM) is invented, not discovered, and voted into existence by a show of hands (by the APA, American Psychiatric Association). Psychiatric DSM labels, known as “mental illnesses/disorders” are not real, demonstrable brain diseases; they are illnesses only in a metaphorical sense. Mental illness cannot be tested in a medically sound or scientifically valid manner: Catch my drift?

    The dopamine hypothesis of schizophrenia has consistently failed to be confirmed despite decades of research and is not supported by the best available scientific evidence in literature. The dopamine hypothesis of schizophrenia carries no credibility in the modern psychiatric research establishment; moreover, there exists negative evidence indicating the contrary (i.e., that it is false).

    Nietzsche says there were once witch-trials in which the prosecutors thought the defendants were guilty. Sometimes, the defendants thought they were guilty too. But none of them ever were. It’s the same with all guilt; Psychiatric-trials.

  • Your Worships,

    This evidence is the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me Gods.

    The board must hear about the following: Centre employees are so used to others being indirect and phony that clear direct communication appears aggressive to them; Hence, arbitrarily changing foul language to aggressive language was a weaponized unauthorized redefining for the sole purpose of allowing her to write a convincing lie based on pseudoscience to move against me at the rights and restrictions hearing (Apr 2020) to levy a false conviction upon me lying that I going around being aggressive with the public. I categorically deny that. I cannot believe the board fell for that cunning manipulative narcissists’ lies, mathias projected her narcissism on me.

    I govern my thoughts. I govern my emotions. I govern my senses. I govern my behavior. I govern my body. Therefore, I govern my life. As such, I will never do anything bad again.

    Whom protects me under the ORB? Those who take my word for it, like my hero’s, the board member’s. Thus, I would like to thank them for condition “(f) On his consent,” as it protected me at least once from clozapine makes my heart explode. So, Thank you.

    Know or do not know, I am not a significant risk nor ever was. I rule my mind, my mind does not rule me. And that comes from the only expert on my body functioning; me.

    This is the very perfection of a man, to find out his own imperfections. I agree and know my imperfections are agitatable, irritable, fear, anger and resentment build, and that some of it could or could not be schizophrenia. But how would we know for certain without a test schizophrenia is unprovable.

    (a) Mr. Dale Southwind ran away from the Centre a few times. After caught last time, he had a hearing right away his lawyer argued; he was not monitored and nothing bad happened is evidence Centre is no longer needed in his life. He won an absolute. I got inspired and “run away” from Centre check ins (I failed reporting, but I did report no less than twice a month so no breaches). I Reduced Centre’s involvement in my life, monitoring from 25-27hrs to about 5-6hrs a year and nothing bad happened. We can use this advantageously, I think. And add if the board finds my solution to create, bring my own evidence to the board, and should they decide another conditional and want him to be cooperative with the centre in future please write in a condition “(k) pull up his socks” so that he knows as he does not read the reasons for decision, but keep in mind he has no other means to prove the centre is no longer needed in his life… etc.

    (b) Mr. Sunstrum was diagnosed with a degenerative brain disease in November 1999. You can be sure after 20 years the brain wastage would show up on my neuroimages by now. But there is no sign of schizophrenia in my brain. We’re not talking diagnosis; we are wondering why schizophrenia is not there in my brain. His family doctor, Lynsay Lane told him, “Everything looks healthy and normal.” Lack of insight; or is it a lack of mental illness?

    (c) Mr. Sunstrum has been writing emails since 1995 and now its supposedly “instability.” Mr. Sunstrum categorically denies any instability now and in his entire life. Schizophrenia is not writing my emails. I am and they are very therapeutic that has alleviated angry affect in totality.

    (d) In regard to the psychiatric drug dose, Dr. Gojer remarked that, “I can’t believe how calm you are” to Mr. Sunstrum at an in-person appointment in June. Or is it a lack of mental illness? Or is it a lack of “severe” schizophrenia.

    (e) Sunstrum knows he is not perfect has (1) mental concerns, however, disagrees with and does not know with certainty he has that in him, and has experienced nothing documented about him whatsoever. He nonetheless is committed to psychiatric drug because “it takes the edge off” while awake and facilitates his (2) transcendent experiences while asleep. Both 1 and 2 he insists that, “It’s something, and whatever it is, it is what it is” so call it “spirituality”, “a gift” or “spaghettis.”

    (f) He identifies as a “Privileged Transcendental” and respectfully asks that you respect his spiritual identity referring to his “human” condition only with this term just as you would for someone with alternative gender identities, such as, non-binary, agender, transgender or pangender. Do not refer to it as a “problem”, disease, disorder, illness, sickness, defect, delusional, grandiose, cognitive deficit, decompensated, decompensation, perceptual abnormalities, psychosis, or any psychiatric labelling, nor coin it sleep paralysis, night terrors, lucid dreaming, sleep psychosis, dreams or sleep deprivation because it would be tasteless, discriminatory, insulting, and offensive to him and the public.

    (g) Mr. Sunstrum emphatically insists he has never heard, thought, know or seen anything that was not real, and does not believe, believing is delusional thoughts, he is an anti-believer, he doesn’t even believe himself. he tries not to think. thinking makes you delude yourself. He is a critical thinker, and questions everything. He is a philosopher, anthropologist, scientist, father, son, brother, uncle and cousin.

    (h) Telling you then, the prosecution is engaged in fear mongering to manipulate the board. And is prosecuting me with speculation, email pseudoscience, hearsay and conjecture using doublespeak. Mr. Sunstrum never views anything disturbing on the internet especially the links sent to teach Marie Dufort what the meaning of vile, ferocious, and vicious constitute because he does not know J. J. Clark’s index offence “criminal harassment” can be termed as such.

    (i) Mr. Sunstrum categorically denies ever stating a belief that he has a gift from god giving him god powers nor did he ever say he viewed serious mental concerns as a gift. He categorically denies he had schizophrenia between 1992 and 2001. He clearly states that he received a doctor’s valid second opinion in 2019 that concluded; “You are not crazy. Fear is where the schizophrenia comes from.” Which is backed up by his Dec 2021 neuroimages and by his life from Jan 2001 to January 2014 essentially unmedicated and experienced no psychiatric symptoms and nothing bad happened. He would like the board to issue special funding to go to the Amen clinic in Chicago who specialize in SPECT imaging, second opinions and have psychiatrists who look at the brain before making a recommendation; unlike most psychiatrists who guess.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=esPRsT-lmw8

    (j) He vehemently denies he has a cognitive deficit: Mr. Sunstrum has an IQ score between 108 and 114. He has had two IQ tests in the past and was told, by first psychologist. “you’re smart ” and second one, ” you are bright. ” A psychiatrist is not the one to determine cognitive deficits unless he is the one who administered the IQ test. Ahmed never gave him an IQ test. He is tired of the Centre’s make believe and childish game of “play pretend.”

    (k) Mr. Sunstrum categorically denies Ahmed and Mathias’s misdiagnosis, misconstrues, mistakes, and lies, the board must hear about these things. So, he had 3-5 small documents submitted and distributed prehearing as he did not want to burden the board during a hearing, but by no means covered all the abuse from centre. Not all discrepancies were reported, such as, email diagnosing pseudoscience; that the centre believes it can see things in him through reading emails and not in person is delusional thoughts. Mr. Sunstrum is thorough if not anything. And he just simply wants to be himself, and wants the truth known to the public, not the lies, about him, and false labelling of him. Above all else he wants to be himself.

    (l) His hypothesis: Are psychiatrist trained to see these things in people or are they trained to put people in these things?
    “Be careful of discursiveness and desultoriness… to be everywhere is to be nowhere.” ~ Seneca
    Switching to first person:

    (m) I neither was nor ever have been a disassociated thought. I know what that is. I have seen it three times in person, you never ever see someone distressed like that, able to collect their thoughts, calm themselves, shut up, sit down, and write let alone email evidence. No! never whatsoever.

    (n) Let alone would someone having a bipolar episode going from one extreme polar opposite to the other have the capacity or functionality, to sit down and capture it in a document. I was misdiagnosed a mood disorder. But Richard Robins claims he saw me going from one extreme polar opposite to the other when he read one of my emails. This is email pseudoscience. He disrespected my artistic license. And made himself look like a fool, like 14 years’ experience in the field and they don’t know the nature of mental illnesses?
    I have researched online numerous hours looking for studies on email diagnosing and found nothing, nada, zilch. So, their accusations are total bullshot. It is pure pseudoscience. Tantamount to claiming you have cured pedophilia with gender reassignment therapy. You just can’t humanly do these things. They imagine things. I sure wish the board would see the light I cast on this darkness. I do not want them to be duped again by the centre, people are getting hurt. Centre: They lied.
    With regards to the first psychiatrist, who misdiagnosed or lied; “you have disassociated thoughts,” the rest just followed her over the cliff. I simply told her the fact; “No, I could have proofread it and edited it to put it all in order if I wanted to.” her logic was barked as such; “but! You didn’t!” So, that’s corrupt. They lied.

    (o) With all due respect board If emails are instability, then anything could be (i.e., losing your keys, fear, waking up on the wrong side of the bed, having a bad or hard day); it is all arbitrary; if emails and such are “an affect of psychiatric illness” then anything can be? It is only their opinion, and just that, an opinion, without evidence. In fact, it is unprovable so just speculating. The Nazi’s argued with the same pseudoscience and logic to gain power. What evidence do you have for instability crown attorney? The board can know the things they say are not diagnosing or assessing me in person to see and hear in me my thoughts and behaviours rather they are looking at my written words, diagnosing emails, the email is the patient. They aren’t being psychiatrists they are being English teachers. And it’s based on what they assume I mean, and not what I actually mean, they take me to literally. They never question their opinion, assumptions or beliefs to see if it matches what I say. Believing in their abilities are delusional thoughts. Yet they have the nerve to preach to me about assuming their all atheists and accusing me of believing what I write, why just because I wrote it doesn’t mean I believe it, I don’t think, thinking leads to deluding oneself. I know, and I write what I know about, and nothing else, and I never claimed I view schizophrenia as a gift, or said I have a gift giving me God powers, those are lies.

    (p) I have a spiritual emergence and strong powerful spiritual insights, transcendent experiences, that I am privileged to have, yet there are a lot of others like me that are privileged. The only abnormal people the centre cases, she was thoroughly corrupt and can, “get centered” as far as I am concerned. I have never had a problem with a locum or a private practice. This place created an enemy of psychiatry. I have no faith whatsoever left in psychiatry or psychiatrist. I digress… anyways:
    (A reader can easily misunderstand because you lack vocal intonation, inflection, tone, nuance, etc., you would get from writer verbally. English is emotionless, unexpressive language so you truly must be careful about what you assume. You definitely can’t see mood disorders, thought processes in people from reading an email; that’s pseudoscience and don’t forget my sloppy writing skills and wordage am not sure what besotted implies; what does “I want to show you love…” mean?) I digress… anyways:

    (q) The centre imagines things. They lied. There is corruption. Abusers. Perhaps not Dr. Gojer, but he is a director, and I remain skeptical, I will tell you if he passes after Aug 24th hearing, if he throws me under the bus I won’t be surprized. I digress… anyways I only wrote once in grade 5, I plagiarized, then 3 times in 1997, and never wrote again until Nov 2019. I suck. I do not have the language to mark my thoughts accurately enough to do my intelligence the justice it deserves. They are not seeing things in me; However, they are seeing things… perceptual and thought abnormalities. I do not know anything about grammar, nothing, I do not know what adverb, noun, adjective means, or how they differ or how to use them even after reading their definitions. I am in the dark. I don’t know squat about what constitutes a paragraph or correct punctuation? I just guess. I don’t know. However, I have adapted. I have evolved. To mimic and only create the illusion of well written evidence. About my writing, it works, but it is not right. It is looking better now that I have been at it nonstop, practicing, since Nov 2019, with 1000s of evidentiary documents completed. Is all the reason why Ahmed said, “there’s still a little bit of disassociated thoughts” and keep in mind he has only seen this behaviour in me by reading my emails he has never actually diagnosed this correctly the only way you can see these things in people; is in person; lol email diagnosing is like “remote viewing”, y’know what that is? Email diagnosing is perfectly full of shit, pseudoscience. According to my father, an educator, my writing is better, but still “a little bit of rant”. But all that sloppy, no proof reading, thus, no spell checking, rewording or editing is still happening. I see the bit of rant in this document… Early in my writing mission I emailed them all rough drafts that made me look stupid and crazy, I know. But that and, digressing (whether noted or not) is not disassociated thoughts, delusional or anything psychiatric related. Nothing has ever been verified in person regarding their charts. These things do not exist in me, maybe you could claim that, but you wouldn’t, if you watched me write. They lied.

    (r) Sometimes I purposely make gibberish, word salad, outrageous, scandalous emails for shits and giggles, and to laugh at them. But with stability. Its frustration relief that makes emails therapeutic. I have improved. Digressing…, “[Enhance public safety] is the alibi of tyrants…. I have my opinion on the matter, as have you, so I shall say there is no answer. Doctors don’t lie? Everybody lies, so… there’s that!

    (s) The truth is my life and times are being boiled down to an artifact of symptomology, they call, “an affect of psychiatric illness.” This centre has been involved in my life and said in a second that I went from remission to severe with a lie and combining all their bull roar makes it very stupid. If you’re very, very stupid, how can you tell possibly realize that you’re very, very stupid. The centre believing in their own shit and abilities is delusional thoughts. But they are fear mongers using scare tactics to manipulate the board into doing their bidding? The crown is politically motivated. I am not a child molester. I have never been aggressive with anyone except evil mathias. I go around making people laugh. I’m a joker. Having a mocking or cynical sense of humour. The Scots have a word for it; pawky. Digressing… Where’s the instability in a member of the public, me, writing a public official who represents the public, and discussing his concerns about my own public safety. I gave Dufort accolades, using respectful language. I talk to my family doctor the same way. Plus, what did I say that was instability, my poems based on dada art movement are meant to be an absurdity. There’s nothing there because there really isn’t anything to this instability nonsense; just email pseudoscience. I digress…

    (t) Schizophrenia is not responsible for this or that or anything about me, and it did not write emails, I did. I rule my mind, my mind does not rule me. I am the public with no public safety. I digress… anyways: According to a centered psychiatrist, who wanted you to agree and believe, I started wearing black clothes (because everyday 150 species go extinct; funeral) and an eye patch (due to pink eye), was “an affect of psychiatric illness.” That’s a lie, because I do things with purposeful intent. I decide to do what I do, not psychiatric illness making choices for me. There isn’t even evidence I have a psychiatric illness. Mental stability is behind what I do or do not do.

    (u) Know or do not know, I am not a significant risk nor ever was. Take it from the only expert on my body; me. I digress (my digressing, whether I tell you or not, is not disassociated thoughts) … How come “Good” hygiene and eating habits are not “an affect of psychiatric illness”? does psychiatric illness turn on and off and only cause poor or bad things? It is worth mentioning. These things are omitted because they make psychiatry pseudoscience. (good isn’t scary either) – a lie of omission is still a lie. In my opinion my habits are good in the way I think good is. They are poor in the way a judgemental opinionated liar thinks poor is. Let us never be swayed by fear mongers into making rash decisions. In dehumanizing me, making me a defect, not living, my life, but suffering “an effect of psychiatric illness” that is neither true nor provable. I shall neither agree/believe with the misdiagnosis nor should I. Moreover, on that, I shall neither recant nor should I. They are the problem not me. They lied.

    (v) I am not instability. I am not a threat to the public. Liars, tyrants and fear mongers are significant risks to public safety since I am the public and they have abused me. And I suffered. They did more harm than good. Why credit them with my successes. I somehow persevered through therapeutic emails. Somehow in writing 1000s document evidence to [email protected] (upon hearing that, Richard Robins blew a gasket snapping, “They’re not! Just! Going to take! Your word! For it!) was believed by the board. The board has consistently been there for me, protecting me and they went out of their way to help me. I have absolute and total faith and trust in them and have no reason to betray them or to lie to them. Never have, never will. Digressing… They call secure prison unit “the trenches,” and ACTT, “boots on the ground” and emails, “ammunition to the board,” and NCRs, “Asse’s” and probably “enemy combatants.” In any case, the environment the centre fosters is not conducive for flourishing and is detrimental to people’s health. I digress… I never complained about the board, but scarcely was saddened when they were duped with speculation and lies by cunning manipulative two so called doctors, I wish the board were to never be duped again, I have seen dupers delight from the first “two” persons in charge at their hearings. I wish the board to publish file #7400 for the public to see. The centre: “are all going to hell for the way they treat people. If the public knew what they were doing, the public wouldn’t stand for it.”

    (w) Profanity is (fucking) therapeutic. All my emails sent to the centre were cries for help that all went unanswered and sloughed off as being “Oh… he’s crazy, just acting out again.” They make claims of mental illness, by saying this they hope to invalidate anything that I might say. Since it is a favorite tactic of abusers, it should only make them more suspicious when coupled with their ranting slander and defamation against me at every hearing throwing me under the bus. Whenever I complain about their bad behaviour, they play the victim and engage in covert intimidation and coercive manipulation, (Gojer the exception) serving to make me more vulnerable to continuing victimization. For example, Ahmed said at last hearing, “Oh… we got and email… something about a threat… pff.” Well, yes, I cried for help about death threats made against me and my son, but they did not, nor ever, help me. Know this the perpetrator, monster behind threats is now facing manslaughter charges and lives in OCDC. So, I am not crazy, fear is where the schizophrenia comes from. For fuck sakes, I am human, I have a value.

    https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/some-assembly-required/201801/profanity-can-be-therapeutic-af

    (x) I agree I have “nice guy syndrome” and know I have it. nice guys like me feel that by being selfless that somehow magically their needs will be met, which leads to resentments that build up, and when I finally do get around to speaking up it erupts into an over-the-top rant called a “victim puke.” I am teaching myself to be more assertive am getting results and having some of my needs met:

    http://www.thedistilledman.com/be-more-assertive/

    (y) But barking dogs seldom bite. My bark is worse than my bite.

    (z) I wish for an absolute so I can put this behind, live it down, not have my past rubbed in my face by the act of report no less and continue living forwards. I want to live forever, so far so good.

  • Disclaimer: this is most likely a rant everything is the truth however, it wasn’t intentional written as a rant, it is just I get humor from writing as such, and I do not know how to write comedy otherwise, besides my writing is that well; It works, but it’s not right.

    My hypothesis: Are psychiatrists trained to put psychiatric symptoms on people or are they trained to see people in psychiatric symptoms? e.g., drapetomania.
    Because first then second centered psychiatrist both have put things on me, while in no way seeing these things in me. Is that the way they all work? Make believe, because its easier to lie than do the actual work, right.
    (a) Mr. S. D. ran away from the Centre a few times. After caught last time, he had a hearing right away his lawyer argued; he was not monitored X amounts of time and nothing bad happened is evidence the Centre is no longer needed in his life. He won an absolute. I got inspired and to “run away” from Centre check ins (I failed reporting, but I did report no less than twice a month so no breaches). I Reduced Centre’s involvement in my life by 80% over the previous year, and nothing bad happened. We can use this to my advantage in Aug 2022 to win an absolute, and escape a corrupt centre.

    (b) I was misdiagnosed with a degenerative brain disease in November 1999. You can be sure after 30 years brain wastage shows up on neuroimages by now. We are not talking about diagnosis; we are wondering why schizophrenia is not there in the brain. His family Doc L. told me, that my Dec 2021 neuroimaging showed, “Everything looks healthy and normal.” Lack of insight; or is it a lack of mental illness ?

    (c) I have been writing emails since 1995 and now supposedly emails from the public to public officials are now signs of “instability.” I categorically deny any stability in me now and in my entire life. There is no psychiatric illness is writing my emails, I am doing that centre cases.

    (d) In regards to the psychiatric drug dose, Haldol. Dr. G, third centre psychiatrist on my case remarked, “I can’t believe how calm you are” to Mr. Sunstrum at an in-person appointment in June. Or is it a lack of mental illness? Or is it lack “severe” schizophrenia. In any case, however, he switched me to Invega oral form, that I have not taken it months, so I like him as I am drug free with no crazy, no things going on because I never had mental concerns, healthy and normal brain, and nothing bad has happened.

    (e) I knows I am not perfect, however, I disagrees with and know with certainty I have experienced nothing resembling the labels put on me. I nonetheless am committed to malingering psychiatric drug compliance because it takes the edge off while and facilitates my transcendental experiences while living forwards, always forwards. I just tell them the truth about the human brain saying, “Whatever it is, it’s something and, it is what it is” so call it “spirituality”, “a gift” or “spaghettis.” But that, I identify as a “Privileged Transcendental” and respectfully asks that you respect my spiritual identity just as you would for someones gender identity, such as, non-binary, agender or pangender, etc. But absolutely, do not refer to me as having a “problem”, condition, issue, disease, disorder, illness, sickness, defect, delusional, grandiose, cognitive deficit, decompensated, decompensation, perceptual abnormalities, psychosis, or any psychiatric labelling, nor coin it sleep paralysis, night terrors, lucid dreaming, sleep psychosis, or sleep deprivation because it would be tasteless, discriminatory, insulting, and offensive.

    (g) I emphatically insists have never heard, thought, known or seen anything that was not real, and is an ardent anti-believer, he doesn’t even believe himself as he knows believing is delusional thoughts. So, it is totally impossible for him to have delusional thoughts. Furthermore, since thinking is a disease that leads one to delude themselves, I do not think, or try hard not to think at least.

    (h) Tell them, the prosecution is involved in these psychiatric pseudocourt inquisition, its worse In the US than here in Canada I hear, anyways crown prosecutors and the psych-centre in engage in fear mongering to manipulate the board members in making a decision to clouded by their fear. And is prosecuting me with speculation, email pseudoscience, hearsay and conjecture, and doublespeak.

    (i) I categorically deniy ever stating a belief that I have a gift from God giving me God powers, however I do have a gift. I did never say I viewed serious mental concerns as a gift. I said I do not have any severe mental concerns. I categorically deny I have schizophrenia whatsoever, specifically in Nov 199 to May 2015. I clearly stated I received a Dr. B’s valid second opinion in 2019, he told me; “You are not crazy. Fear is where the schizophrenia comes from.” That is backed up by my Dec 2021 neuroimages. And by the fact I went from Jan 2001 to January 2014 essentially unmedicated and experienced no psychiatric ailments and nothing bad happened. I would like them to issue special funding so I can go to the Amen clinic in Chicago which specializes in SPECT imaging, second opinions and, whose psychiatrists actually look at the brain instead of guessing like most psychiatrists.

    (j) I vehemently deny I have a cognitive deficit: I have an IQ between 108 and 114. I have had two IQ tests in the past and was told, by psychologist 1. “you’re smart ” and 2. ” you are bright. ” A psychiatrist is not the one to determine this unless he is the one who administered the IQ test. Dr. A never gave me an IQ test he just put it on me like a liar.

    (k) I absolutely deny Dr. A. and Dr. M. misdiagnosis, misconstrues, mistakes, and lies, the board must hear about these things. I do not want to burden the board with my prehearing submissions and got 10 pages distributed behind my lawyers back, so I have annoyed them, and will keep chirping at the hearing, but in no mean does 10 pages cover the corruption problem at the royal Ottawa centre completely. Not all discrepancies were reported. I just want the truth to come to the public attention and have these abusers brought to justice and justice for the abused. Not to be lied about and labelled with these things that are not in me. Above all else, I want to be himself, and so I am.

    “Be careful of discursiveness and desultoriness… to be everywhere is to be nowhere.”
    ~ Seneca

    (l) I neither was nor ever have been a disassociated thought. I know what that is. I have seen it three times in person, you never ever see someone distressed like that, to then, collect their thoughts, calm themselves to sit down and write an eight-page email attachment. No! Not possible whatsoever.

    (m) Let alone would someone having a bipolar episode going from one extreme polar opposite to the other actually have the capacity or functionality, to sit down and capture it in a document. But the centre brain cop, a case manager Rich claims he saw me going from one extreme polar opposite to the other when he read one of my emails like a week after I wrote it. He disrespected my artistic license. And made himself look like a fool, like 14 years experience in the field and they don’t know the nature of these things. I have researched online numerous hours looking for studies on email diagnosing and found nothing, nada, nothing except how much of a burden reading patient emails is to a busy case load of a psychiatrist. So, their accusation is total bullshot. It is pure pseudoscience. Tantamount to claiming you have cured pedophilia with gender reassignment therapy. You just can’t do those things. I sure wish the board would see the light I cast on their wickedness. They lied. Digressing…

    With regards to the first psychiatrist, who misdiagnosed or lied; “you have disassociated thoughts” and the rest just followed her of the cliff. I simply told her the facts; “No, I could have proofread it and edited it to put it all in order if I wanted to.” She barked a retort with the stupid childish logic that; “But! You didn’t!” So, that’s corrupt. Liars. They lie. They lied.

    (o) They are telling me my emails are instability. Well, then anything could be (i.e. forgetting to wash your hands, having a bad or hard day, posting on social media, etc.); it is all arbitrary; if emails and such are “an affect of psychiatric illness” then anything can be? It is only their opinion, and just that, an opinion, without evidence. In fact, it is unprovable so just speculating. The Nazi’s argued better logic, convincingly enough to influence their way to become the government. I have my opinion on the matter, as have you, so I shall say there is no answer.

    What evidence do you have for instability in me from emails? Diddly squat, 0 evidence, I was instability.

    The board can know the things they say are not diagnosing or assessing me in person to see and hear in me my thoughts and behaviours rather they are looking at my written words, diagnosing emails, the email is the patient. They aren’t being psychiatrists they are being English teachers. And it’s based on what they assume I mean or believe I mean, and not what I actually mean, and they never question their assumptions or beliefs that are actually delusional thoughts, yet they have the nerve to preach to me about assuming their all atheists and accusing me of believing what I write, why just because I wrote it doesn’t mean I believe it, I don’t think, thinking leads to deluding oneself. I know, and I write what I know about, and nothing else, and I never claimed I view schizophrenia as a gift, or said I have a gift giving me God powers, those are lies.

    (p) I have a spiritual emergence and strong powerful spiritual insights, that I am privileged, yet, there are a lot of others like me. Privileged. The only abnormal freaks is a former centre shrink, she was thoroughly corrupt and can, “get centered” as fad as I a concerned. I have never had a problem with a locum or a private practice. This place created a enemy of psychiatry. I have no faith whatsoever left in it. I digress… anyways

    (In writing there is tons of misunderstandings the meaning is lost because you lack vocal intonation, inflection, tone, nuance, etc., you would get from a voice. Plus English is a flat emotionless, unexpressive language so you truly have to be careful about what you assume the writer means (definitely can’t see mood disorders in people from reading an email; pseudoscience). And don’t forget my sloppy writing skills and word understanding, I am not sure what besotted actually implies; but, what do I mean; “I want to show you love…?”) I digress… anyways:

    (q) They imagine things. They lied. They are corrupted. Excluding Dr. Gojer whom I like best so far, but he is a director, and I remain skeptical, I will tell you if he passes after listening to his verbal presentation. I digress… anyways:

    The fact is, I do not know anything about grammar, I know nothing, I do not know what an adverb, noun, adjective means, or how they differ or how to use them, I don’t even understand what they mean or how to use them even after reading their definitions, I don’t even understand the definitions, I am in the dark. I don’t know squat about what constitutes a paragraph or a proper sentence or correct punctuation? I just guess. My writing: it works, but it’s not right.

    However, I have learned a few more things along this journey, but I am only creating the illusion that I know what I am doing by my writing skill. Yes, it is working better now since I have been at it non stop, practicing, beginning for the first time, basically in Nov 2019, with 1000s of documents under my belt, is why Dr. A. told last years board; “there’s still a little bit of disassociated thoughts” but there never was any it is just I am better at mimicking a good writer. Keep in mind he has only seen this behaviour in me by reading my emails he has never actually diagnosed this correctly the only way you can see these things in people within person observation. Their email diagnosing is like “remote viewing” y’know? Email diagnosing is perfectly full of shit, pseudoscience. I digress… anyways:

    According to my father, a teacher and principal, my writing has gotten better, and is still “a little bit a rant shanty rant-e”. But all that sloppy, no proof reading, thus, no spell checking, rewording or editing still happens sometimes it is just better rough draft creative writing now.

    Early in my writing career I emailed nothing but rough drafts (I didn’t care about proofreading then), that, made me look stupid and crazy, I know that. But that and, digressing (whether noted or not) is not disassociated thoughts, delusional or anything psychiatric related, in person, has never been verified in me because these things do not exist in me, maybe you could claim that, but you wouldn’t, if you watched me write. They lied.

    (r) Sometimes I purposely make gibberish, word salad emails just to laugh at them, saying things like “45,000 aliens are living in my head” or “the ghost that lives in my anus is trying to kill me”, I sure hope bug the shit out of them. I want to leave brain droppings all over the place and watch them go ape shit! Bananas! Right nuts! It is not instability. It is frustration which begs to be released and as they believe their own shit, “there’s still a little bit of disassociated thoughts” is only because I have improved my writing skills and, I proofread now, sometimes mostly not always do I have too though.

    “Public safety is the alibi of tyrants….

    Doctors don’t lie? Actually, everybody does and they do more frequently than the average allegedly. Intelligent people commit a lot of injustices as they can more easily think up ways to justify their actions, making it seem acceptable, and get away with abuse.

    (s) The truth is my life and times are being boiled down to an artifact of defect they call “an affect of psychiatric illness,” since this centre has been involved in my life, I went from remission to “severe” with a lie, now and knowing it is stupid. That. They lied. Makes me homicidal. J/K.

    My poetry, prose, creative writing and Shits ‘N’ Giggles in emails be characterized as instability? No but they are supposed to be dada inspired absurdity, for laughs. But to scare the board into punishing me holding me back is purely politically motivation by the crown prosecutions office. But seriously someone with mental instability would not be able to write, the crown knows that. But the crowns treat me like I am a child molesting murdering monster.

    Where’s the instability in a member of the public, me, writing a public official who supposedly represents the public, and, who has their email broadcast over the internet for all to see, to discuss business and give accolades, using respectful language. I do talk to my family doctor the same way. Plus, what did I say that was instability, my poems based on dada art movement are meant to be an absurdity. There’s nothing there, because there really isn’t anything to this instability nonsense; just email pseudoscience.

    Digressing… They call me mentally ill, by saying this they hope to invalidate anything that I might say. Since it is a favorite tactic of abusers, it should only make them more suspicious when coupled with the premise behind their slander and defamation against me during these hearings, I am thrown under the bus. Dr. Gojer being a slight exception, he does have more tact in his attack.

    I digress… digressing: Schizophrenia is not responsible for this or that or anything about me or anything I say, think or do, and it does not write emails and did not write this document, I did.

    (t) I rule my mind, my mind does not rule me. So…, the crown will prosecute me anytime it is recommended I am living forwards and it’s not based on actual facts, because ten years from now, God forbid, if I am living forwards then, the crown will still prosecute and default into persecuting me, this is political, I am a political prisoner. A public member with no public safety. I digress… anyways:

    (u) According to a centered psychiatrist, who wanted you to agree and believe, I started wearing black clothes (everyday there’s a funeral) and an eye patch (due to pink eye), was “an affect of psychiatric illness.” That’s a lie, because with purposeful intention, I decide to do what I do, not psychiatric illness making choices for me. There isn’t even evidence I have a psychiatric illness. Mental stability is behind what I do or do not do.

    Know or do not know, I am not a significant risk, nor ever was. I rule my mind, my mind does not rule me. And that comes from the only expert on my body functioning; me.

    I digress (my digressing, whether I tell you or not, is not disassociated thoughts) … “good” hygiene and eating habits are not “an affect of psychiatric illness” or worth mentioning and are intentionally omitted because they are good (good isn’t scary). In my opinion my habits are good in the way I think good is. They are poor in the way they think poor is opinionated assholes. They manipulate using fear; scare tactics. Let us never be swayed by fear mongers into making decisions.

    In dehumanizing me, making me a defect, not living, my life, but suffering “an affect of psychiatric illness” that is neither true nor provable. I shall neither agree/believe with the diagnosis nor should I. Moreover, I shall neither recant nor should I.

    (v) I am not instability. I am not a threat to the public. Racist, liars, and fear mongers are significant risks to public safety, since I am the public. And I suffer their abuse. Thus, if their “goal is to enhance public safety through recovery” there was no need to recovery me and they did no such thing, it has been devoid recovery, thank God, as they did more harm using recovery against me inside the secure prison ward which they call “the trenches.” FYI, they call my community designate “Boots on the ground.” And they call my emails, “Ammunition to the board.” They are twisted. Doubtful they have my best interests, or others, in mind. Because they play “brain police” always questioning you at reports, so one other reason, I malinger drapetomania and ditch reports, because they use the Reid technique on us, all the time, I am sick of it, someone give me an absolute or MAID service. The asinine jerks. They lied.

    I somehow persevered through emails abuses. They have had an enormous number of therapeutic benefits, they felt liberating, spiritual cleansing the centre’s negative workings. Somehow in writing 1000s documents, sending 300 or so of them to [email protected]******.ca (I told the case manage that he blew a gasket snapping, “They’re not!, just!, going to take!, your word!, for it!”) (I whistle-blower on them, and I did, I do, and I will at every juncture) (The board does, did and will take my word for it). For God sakes, I am human, I have a value, the board values me. The board is there for me, for my protection and they help me. I have absolute and total faith and trust in them and have no reason to betray them or to lie to them. Never have, never will. They are good people. They have gone above and beyond and out of their way to accommodate me. The board must hear about this, Flattery will get you everywhere.

    I know they exist on servers forever and hopefully will come to the attention of the public one day. But I never complained about the board much, but scarcely. I wish the board to publish it all for academic study.Whom protects me under the ORB? Those who take my word for it, like my hero’s, the board member’s. Thus, I would like to thank them for condition “(f) On his consent, take prescribed med…” as it protected me at least once from clozapine which would have made my heart explode.

    (x) “Woof! Woof! Barking dogs seldom bite, my bark is worse than my bite.

  • My hypothesis: Are psychiatrists trained to put psychiatric symptoms on people or are they trained to see people in psychiatric symptoms? e.g., drapetomania.

    Because centered psychiatrist first then second have been putting these things on me, not seeing these things in me. Is that the way they work, make believe, because its easier to lie than do the actual work, right.

    They lied.