Friday, December 9, 2022

Comments by HiddenInHindsight

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  • Nicole, I was so saddened but not at all surprised to read your story. I find it extremely isolating to experience this level of abuses of power, and am impressed with your ability to stay grounded in your truth to share your story while/after being re-victimized by these systems. I live with a lot to fear about who I can share what with, because I unfortunately know all too well how little it takes for people to pathologize a totally appropriate response to horrific things and how easily things can be twisted to create a narrative that serves only the ones who are abusing their power. I’ve shared your piece with others in an attempt to give them deeper understanding to the lasting impacts of the trauma tbat comes after being reoeqtedly failed by the systems that so many people defend, or think will only help them. Thank you for your work.

  • Susan, thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m so sorry that you had to carry all that pain for so many years on your own. I identified a lot with many of the things you shared in your piece and find its very difficult for many people to understand the true hell it can be to survive something like akathesia. I’m grateful for your vulnerability and wish you the best as you continue your healing journey.

  • I haven’t been checking my alerts! 4.5 years off meds. I actually requested my medical records from my former psychiatrist and found that to be both horrifying (the amounts of meds, the weight gain, the ECT recommendations…) but most of all I felt so validated. To see only the few notes my psychiatrist made about my social situation in those 15 minute sessions, I wish someone would have just said—I would imagine you’re sad and angry and anxious; look at everything you’re currently up against in your personal life. She notated it there, but with years removed and the insights I was able to see clear as day that what I was doing was internalizing instead of accepting my situation and what/who needed to change within my life. I’m grateful for you sharing, and replying to comments. I hope to be able to share more as you have here

  • Thank you so much for sharing your story. My experience (unfortunately) is eerily similar. The electrical jolts, paired with reading Anatomy of an Epidemic, was what prompted me to get off my meds. I titrated myself and spent a lot of time pushing for further testing and seeing specialists (OBGYN, Endocrinologist) searching for answers, which I didn’t get until seeing a functional Medicine doctor. I felt all the frustrations you expressed and was left wondering how to challenge the model we are all presented with: your brain has a deficiency, take these meds. I‘m surrounded by friends and family who all continue to be fed this model, even defending it, so I have to be very careful in how I share my experience. After stopping the meds, it was never any worse than I was on them all—in fact, it was actually better because I didn’t have the long list of side effects. This model of looking at mental health is so much more empowering, whereas previously I felt hopeless and resigned to my brain “deficiency”. Obviously I still have tough days, but instead of expecting a pill to fix that, I’m understanding and working through years of trauma and building the skill set to process the information my body is trying to tell me, instead of silencing it.

  • Do you have a twitter account? I see your blog has tons of writing. I really enjoyed this piece and it strongly resonated with my experience. I’m curious if you have become involved with an organization in ways similar to what your Dad did. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I hope your words continue to reach others and give them a chance at healing too.

  • Thank you for sharing. I recently listened to a Mad in America podcast that discussed the benefits people found with nutritional supplements. My journey was similar to yours in that I ultimately took myself off of my antidepressants. I found that without, I did no worse than I did on them. I’ve been off them for almost 4 years now. I’ve found eating well, consistently, to be a struggle due to my eating disordered past and anxiety I have over weight I gained while on the anti-depressants. I want to look further into the potential benefits of nutritional supplements, or maybe find a nutritionist willing to assist me in that journey.