You really hit the nail on the head with this one. Your description of the disease makes perfect sense. After my last episode I felt like I’ve gotten closer to uncovering the trauma behind it but it’s like the meds they give me patched it up and I lose my chance at understanding it. Still I feel like a relapse it just around the corner some days. Meditation helps though. Just reading your description of it gave me flashbacks of everything and kinda helped me understand it better. Thanks.