As best as I can figure out from looking through my old paperwork I had a few hundred ECT’s over a period of 15 years. I finally stopped agreeing to having them 10 years ago, and really felt like I had hit a new level of rock bottom a couple of months later. That miserable experience triggered a profound spiritual healing in me… I still struggle daily with the damage of ECT, permanent memory loss and feelings of emotional detachment. At times I still indulge in getting really angry at the doctors who harmed me, and even shake my fist at God and give him a piece of my mind, but I’ve made a personal decision to do as much good as I can in the time I have left. Hang in there ECT survivors !!!