I am going to try to keep this short. I am under a court order for forced mental health treatment for six years now. After I went in the hospital VOLUNTARILY and was tricked into signing a court order. Last year, I asked my doctor-who is more like a judge of the soul- if I could be a fazed up and moved out of the system? His response, “If you dont like it MOVE!” Mind you I have social workers who visit me 2 a week to watch me take medication and I am little annoyed by their “do-gooder” attitudes and my lack of privacy. I have no say in my treatment nor any control of really anything. This is blunt, but social workers arent the smartest people I have meet and I feel obligated to make them feel valued. I have come to the conclusion that this is just the industry and I am the product. My last doctor visit was me convincing them I didnt need injections, which is basically every visit-they seem to like to push injections. And then they end the visit with the “Are you homicidal?” I have no criminal history of violence and they keep insinuating I am dangerous. Its so insulting. I think I really have to move because they are so up my ass like and ex I cant shake. The meds are all just tranquilizers, even the literature calls them MAJOR TRANQUILIZERS. Honestly, its not gonna change you just have to avoid these people the best you can and not be human around them. They see you simple as a mental patient anything you do or say can and will be used against you. Lastly, the times I have been thrown in the hospital and encountered other patients I really lost hope in any change possible. MANY people LOVE their meds like they love their drugs. They want to be sedated and that is sad. But I learned to keep my mouth shut and keep calm and carry on. It looks like I will have to move just to have some peace mind and be left alone. So sad, because no matter how much good I do in my community mental health is there to remind I am so dangerous. Idiots….the workers and the doctors are just low level surveillance.