Hi Jeffrey. Thank you for sharing your story! I have a son with a somewhat similar story. He’s 27 and has always struggled with the school setting and anxiety. I couldn’t get help for him and refused to put him on drugs. I also had mental health problems that I refused to take drugs for so I had no idea what to do to help him. The blind leading the blind. Anyway I pulled him out of middle school and tried to homeschool him. The way things went he ended up not getting any social skills. Now at 27 he is exactly like you and just needs emotional connection and not with me. He still lives at home. He’s so depressed sometimes and keeps going back to any mind altering drug that will boost his mood and ends up being picked up by police. The only thing his state insurance will cover is psychiatry and drugs and therapy by people who only have a master’s degree and could not care less if he showed up or not. At one point he had a girlfriend he loved and for the first time I saw him real and shiny and happy and wanting to live life. She ended up leaving him partly because he doesn’t have the social skills and understanding of how the give and take works. It’s so sad. I feel for you and can imagine how hard it is for you but don’t give up! Your tribe that understands is out here listening. Keep writing. I encourage my son to write as well. Any creative outlet is a good thing.