Thank you Monica, I read through the blog at least once a day and did read your posting last Saturday. Community is what is helping me and knowing there are others out here in this crazy world working through these challenges and providing support amongst each other is the fuel for my own path towards recovery. I am a passionate cat person. I have four that are my life, but they are not able to stay in this apartment with me at the present time and thus are staying with my friend. They have always been there for me. They would sleep with us when we were in our houses and provided such loving comfort. I so miss that, but I am able to visit them on the weekends and it breaks my heart when I leave because they know and start meowing. I have never had children, but my animals have always served that purpose. I see your wonderful friend in your profile pic. Hope you are doing well during your solo time.