Friday, February 26, 2021

Comments by theleapinglamb

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  • Hey, thanks for sharing your story. I have had similars issues myself. Took me years to figure out what was going on. I thought I had everything from bipolar to schizophrenia but I am fairly confident I had something called ‘Unwanted, Intrusive Thoughts’. Had a couple manic episodes during my month of taking anti-depressants and decided not to keep taking them. I went through all the same thought processes as you trying to figure out what in the world was going on. It was like I was behind my head watching the doer. You’ll find that meditation, while still very helpful, isn’t a cure. We all have these ‘Unwanted, intrusive thoughts’ but somehow it gets triggered in some people and turns into an obsession with thinking. I stumbled upon this concept while I was reading info on schizophrenia (what I thought I had at the time) and got a book to see if this was actually my issue. After reading for 2 chapters I started crying for hours because I finally got the relief and confirmation I had been seeking for years. I thought I was going crazy for so damn long! I didn’t know how to tell anyone about my thoughts. I’m sending this comment to let you know you are not going crazy and that you are not your thoughts. I sincerely hope you check this comment as you simply researching this topic of ‘Unwanted, intrusive thoughts’ may provide immediate comfort and relief. I am not claiming to be a psychiatrist/psychologist. I could be totally off but check it out if you aren’t familiar. I do know we have extremely similar stories and at the very least it is worth you looking into. Thanks for putting your story out there. Good luck!