I’m so sorry to hear your story. I’m 39 and two years ago after suffering with post natal depression I also took a SSRI. After only a week or so I felt so internally numb and lost all interest in sex. I had no sexual desire whatsoever. This feeling of emotional numbness, disconnection, and loss of libido caused me to go off the drug after only a few weeks thinking I would return to how I felt prior. Months went past and now 2 years later nothing has changed except I feel worse. I feel rage and anger, sadness, emptiness, loss of all happy emotions, loss of passion, motivation and a general loss of feeling alive. I still have physiological sensation but it takes effort and feels like I’m just going through the motions with my partner (who I am still very attracted to) which then makes me feel more empty, I feel guilt and shame. It’s absolutely horrible and any doctor I’ve mentioned it to doesn’t say another thing about it. They kinda glaze over and bring it back to a depression or psychological problem which is infuriating. It has caused so much emotional upheaval in my relationship to the point of almost breaking up. Before I researched and came across this problem I was so confused and thought I was going crazy or not ‘feeling’ it with my partner anymore. I really hope some kind of solution is found. Thank you for spreading awareness
I’m so sorry to hear your story. I’m 39 and two years ago after suffering with post natal depression I also took a SSRI. After only a week or so I felt so internally numb and lost all interest in sex. I had no sexual desire whatsoever. This feeling of emotional numbness, disconnection, and loss of libido caused me to go off the drug after only a few weeks thinking I would return to how I felt prior. Months went past and now 2 years later nothing has changed except I feel worse. I feel rage and anger, sadness, emptiness, loss of all happy emotions, loss of passion, motivation and a general loss of feeling alive. I still have physiological sensation but it takes effort and feels like I’m just going through the motions with my partner (who I am still very attracted to) which then makes me feel more empty, I feel guilt and shame. It’s absolutely horrible and any doctor I’ve mentioned it to doesn’t say another thing about it. They kinda glaze over and bring it back to a depression or psychological problem which is infuriating. It has caused so much emotional upheaval in my relationship to the point of almost breaking up. Before I researched and came across this problem I was so confused and thought I was going crazy or not ‘feeling’ it with my partner anymore. I really hope some kind of solution is found. Thank you for spreading awareness