I know they don’t work for everyone and I’m sorry that you had such a terrible experience with them but for what it’s worth I believe antidepressants have saved my life. My depression was initially identified by my GP after I had been worked up for insomnia, decreased appetite and various other symptoms. On seeing a psychologist I was found to be in the midst of a major depressive episode and what was worse, I didn’t care. My doctor commenced an anti-depressant (pristiq) which I took as I had no spirit left to reject any easily fulfilled request – it was just easier not to fight. After several weeks I have the clearest memory of feeling the sun on my skin and enjoying it. I really think it was the best moment of my life. I felt this incredible, deep happiness and peace and I realised at that moment for the first time that I actually HAD depression. That I hadn’t felt anything even approaching happiness for at least 5 years. I have been taking my meds every day without fail for 8 months and I have never felt better. I can work harder, I’ve made new friends and I laugh and laugh every day. I now recognise when I am getting unwell because I have some happiness to compare it to and am able to implement the strategies my psychologist has given me instead of numbly nodding at her advice so she would stop talking and I could return to my bed as I did in my first visit before starting medications and in the first few weeks until they started working. For me, the medications are not a sole cure, but they have returned me to a state of having insight into my illness and motivation to use adjunctive therapies.