Hi David, Thank you so much for your story. I have been surviving pretty awful depression for almost a year and had googled anti depressants when I came across your story. This has given me the strength to keep trying unassisted by meds which I have such a strong natural aversion to. I’m in Sydney too, I live a truly blessed life and want for so little, I’m active and healthy but can’t shake this feeling of inner sadness. You’ve given me the motivation to go back to CBT and work bloody hard at beating this bastard. I know I’ll get there. Thank you!