I have been receiving bilateral ECT since February for bipolar depression. Medications were not working and antidepressants are not an option for me, as they trigger mania in me. I was going to begin to taper off treatments in May and go on maintenance, but I lost my insurance, so I had to stop abruptly. Since stopping like this, my mood has not remained stable, despite a cocktail of meds and talk therapy. I have been struggling with a depressive disorder. The treatments took my memory away from most of last year through may of this year. I don’t remember my grandmother’s funeral. The thing is, I felt much better, and, according to family, I was more productive and stable than ever while on ECT. I’m starting again next week, and I’m relieved. I think it worked for me.