@larmac I cant express how sorry I am for your loss of your son!!! Thank you for being apart of this community to help other parents going through this. You are inspiring!!! It is extremely hard when your child is not well and you can’t kiss them to make it better. I so desperately want to fix this for him. Sometimes he makes comments like ” he would rather have a terminal illness than to spend the rest of his life like this”. I continue to tell him it is going to get better. This won’t last forever. I don’t know if that is true or not but I pray for him daily and just hope that it will get better. He has had relapses with substances and I know the damage it does to him. He had an episode 2 days ago and has not been himself all week. My first gut instinct is that he did drugs. I test him and he comes up negative but I have noticed that he doesn’t have an episode right after using it will happen a couple of days after using. Some drugs are out of your system after 72 hours. When he is experiencing withdrawal that’s when the psychosis sets in. Its hard too because I’m dealing with a 16 year old. He is very intelligent and knows a lot about his symptoms but I think at times he don’t care. He just wants relieve even if its temporary. It’s heartbreaking.