Saturday, November 27, 2021

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  • Hi. I am new to this, but, I have had this bookmarked for a long time. I am benzo free for 11 months. I am afraid of brain damage, that it might be permanent. I also have constant suicide wish, but no plan. I think that the suicidal ideation is a side effect of the benzo withdrawal. I actually was a suicide hotline volunteer for two years. I was able to talk many down from suicide. I wonder about recent celebrity suicides, and if they were detox related., or medication related. All I know is that I have hope, and that giving in is not an option for me. I have become deeply religious. I am part of a faith community, but they would not be able to understand this. So, I feel alone. I hope you all feel better soon. I remember saying to my therapist months ago that it is just so very difficult to be inside of this body. That is still true.