melissa, i feel for you, but i’m pretty sure there are easier ways of getting off benzos. i was on anywhere from 6-10 milligrams of ativan when i went into rehab. they were able to get be off them rather successfully in a month. all they so is put you on seraquel, a non-narcotic knock out drug that will allow you to sleep while they titrate you down to nothing in a months time. after that i had to take seraquel for a little while but i gradually got off it and was fine. i guess everyone is different . . . and your situation seemed pretty tough. anyhow, glad you’re out of the woods!