Thank you so much for taking the time to respond to my lengthy, if not somewhat whining post. What do I mean by moral repugnance? At the end of the day, you are either serving yourself or serving, for lack of a better word, God. The “New Age” community is vastly focused on self-glorification and receiving remuneration for spiritual work. They exalt themselves, and by selling the sacred, they desecrate the sacred. I have met many who are a case in point that there is no prerequisite for honor or integrity when one pursues acquiring spiritual power. I never would have asked for or sought out what I have received. I would not wish the devastating separation that occurs after merging with God on anyone. During the first few years after I was blind-sided by something I never knew existed, I could not have worked, and fortunately I didn’t have to. Among other things, I learned to work with possessions. A few years after I experienced it, I read about being energetically “rewired”, which was literally physically excruciating at times. I never sought psychiatric help because I knew better, so I was never medicated. I now live a very busy, engaged life that is void of anyone I can speak about my ongoing spiritual experiences, including calls to service to others via clairaudient communication. In all my reading, one of my favorites regarding spiritual emergencies such as a kundalini awakening is Marja S’s correspondence with Deepak Chopra at http://kundalini.se/en/articles/public-letter-mr-deepak-chopra. In particular, I found her closing quote from Gopi Krishna’s “The Awakening of Kundalini” (which I also read): The only safe way to cosmic consciousness is the unselfish way, or as it also is recommended in Bhagavad Gita, Nishkama Karma, selfless action as service to God. One can’t jump from childhood to adulthood on the physical plane, and one can’t become a “being of love and light” if one has selfishness, darkness, left in one’s thoughts. For those who require medication to function because they are unable to control or manage the altered states of conscious, I am curious about the triggers for onset of the spiritual emergence, if there is a typical range of duration from onset of the spiritual emergence to return to full, non-medicated functionality, and if any semblance of any sequence of stages in spiritual emergence has been identified. I am looking forward to hearing what the transpersonal psychology professionals have to say.