Thursday, February 9, 2023

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  • I had a man who kept following me around to my jobs. He was obsessed with me and kept ending up getting me fired. Everybody just laughed and said he couldn’t help it because he just liked me so much. But I couldn’t stand the guy, I thought he was disgusting and a horrible loser. Eventually, he “practically raped” me. What we mean by that is that we couldn’t get away from the asshole, but we worry that maybe if we had fought more we could have gotten away. The truth is, that’s what a rape is – you just can’t get away from the guy. I gave up on working because I just couldn’t get away from the guy. Then I went into the mental health system. It was embarrassing, and I just didn’t want to go through it anymore. At the time, though, I didn’t totally realize what I was doing. But then later I felt like I became schizophrenic almost by choice, because I just gave up. I didn’t know how to get out of the situation. I think I would have had to kill the guy in order to stop him, and I don’t even think I could have done that. The guy was gay, and I am gay, and for some reason he was just obsessed with me. Since I have been talking about it, now twenty years later, I am feeling better with my delusions. But I keep fighting with him. When you see schizophrenic people hitting out, they are probably not hearing voices, they are just trying to fight with somebody who has attacked them before.

  • It’s always the victims who are called “disordered”, or “mentally ill”. Then it’s like the abusive treatment just continues. Nobody wants to admit that bad treatment can affect a person mentally. NAMI formed so that parents could defend themselves against accusations of abuse. Now it’s all “nobody is responsible for anything, it’s all just a brain illness”. Nobody wants to hold the abusive people responsible for what they do. Men are supposed to be able to do whatever they want to do. They aren’t held accountable for abuse.