Thursday, January 17, 2019

Comments by betsycam

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  • Very sad what happened to your dad, Roberta, but I am glad that you and your family took the bull by the horns and got him off all those meds! We are trained to trust doctors and be compliant, but anymore I don’t trust doctors! I was one to take ADs for over 20 years with GPs renewing my scripts. And they never did the wonderful things they were supposed to do. I’m angry at myself for continuing to take them despite that, yet I bought the “chemical imbalance” explanation and so it went.

    When Robin Williams committed suicide, I KNEW it was about the meds, treatment resistant depression or worse. No one wanted to look at his mental health history and history of meds. It HAD to be about Parkinson’s or Lewey Body, with a passing acknowledgement that he had antidepressants in his system. Well, all the good THEY did! How is it that so many who suicide have antidepressants and/or other psych meds in their systems? And no one gives it any consideration. Well, we know the answers thanks to folks like Robert Whitaker.

  • When you see the number of members on SurvivingAntidepressants.org that are poly-drugged and miserable, trying to come off their cocktails, you KNOW adding more doesn’t work! When it is discovered that two antidepressants still isn’t working, now you’ve got two to come off of, no easy fete. Of course, a bunch of other drugs will be added along the way, z-pills, anti-anxiety, antipsychotics, to treat all the side effects of the previous meds, and then add another antidepressant to deal with the depression caused by all the other drugs. The Medi-Go-Round, as they say. But look at all the money Big Pharma is making in the meantime!

  • Thank you for your encouragement, Cathy. Can I ask one more thing? Given yours and my similar upbringing and the issues of lacking confidence, etc., what type of therapy has worked the best for you to overcome the inner dialogue that goes with that? I have yet to find anything that sticks. Intellectually I know I am not worthless, yet I am having trouble rewiring my brain to accept more positive thinking. Maybe it is because I am still on a small amount of meds, still tapering. Thoughts?

  • Cathy, there’s a lot of similarities in our stories! I also struggled with lack of confidence, “educated but not prepared for life” striking a cord! Funny, I have a farm and have had periods of feeling completely overwhelmed with it, too! I have been on antidepressants from 1994 and after a very bad attempt at coming off Effexor, ended up on it plus another and have been tapering those ever since.

    Your story of reclaiming your emotions gives me hope. As Peter Breggin says, I was spellbound by the meds, not realizing how much of a vice grip they had on my human experience. I have been stuck in anhedonia since the bad Effexor withdrawal, and fear I will never recover. Having been medicated since I was 30 (now 53), I fear I will ever truly feel and live again.

    I wonder if it was difficult for you to meditate initially? I have been unsuccessful at being able to practice. I know it is something that would be good to do, but long stretches of time go by where I forget to even think about doing it! I am cognitively damaged.

    I am trying EMDR to see if that might jostle my neurons into life.

    Thank you for this story of hope. I am glad for you that you have come out the other side.

  • I stopped listening when he said his “original complaints” came back four months after he ended his taper and so he is back on antidepressants and quite happy with it. I appreciate that he is on the right path with providing people with a sane way to come off their meds, but he falls short in understanding withdrawal. People who were put on these meds for reasons unrelated to depression and anxiety have developed depression and anxiety in that time frame after coming off, so not the “original complaints.” Just because people feel ok coming off with 25% cuts doesn’t mean they still won’t get hit with withdrawal months out. How many of those people who seemed ok with faster tapers ended up back on meds because their original complaint came back in four or so months? I wager that they were hit with delayed withdrawal.

    I know people who did small cuts off mirtazapine with home-made liquids but at a more rapid pace than the recommended three to four weeks, and were fine during the taper; yet, they have been hit with withdrawal months out. Windows and waves.

    It is not helpful to have Groot promoting the relapse scenario and “ADs are helpful for some people” after the good work of developing a tapering system!

  • Agreed. I think it goes beyond the sexual and affects all aspects of the life experience: Anhedonia. SSRIs/SNRIs have ruined my life along with trying to come off. It is amazing that my marriage has survived, but I can honestly say that I have never been completely honest with my husband as to the extent to which the anhedonia these drugs have caused impacts. I have not felt a deep connection to him or anyone else for years, and lovemaking is something to be endured, for the fact that I have no libido, lack of sensation or response to touch, very poor quality orgasms etc. It isn’t just about him; I have no fantasies and don’t get turned on looking at other men or thinking about being with anyone else. I find little pleasure in life generally speaking. It is really a rather tedious existence. No sense of satisfaction in life, joy to be alive. We only have one life to live, and it is unbearable to think of all the years I allowed these drugs to ruin me, that I don’t get back. I lost the prime of my life. I continued taking them because I believed the lie. If only I’d known in advance…