Sunday, November 17, 2019

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  • I consider my case of bipolar I to be unusual in that I don’t have mood swings. Seems contrary to the definition of bipolar. I did take Prozac for a year, due to complaining to a psychiatrist about insomnia, who diagnosed with with unipolar depression. I experienced the “poop-out” and quit after a year — I could tell it lost it’s effectiveness over time. Then I went a year without anything and was in good spirits. I attributed this to attending some personal growth seminars, which some people claim to cause mental problems also. I considered the seminars to be a natural anti depressant. Then I got married and stresses plus my trigger caused a first full blown manic episode. I blamed the seminars for a while. Then I just figured I must have been prone to developing bipolar all along, and that the depression diagnosis was a mis-diagnosis. But this data makes me wonder now if the Prozac may have been a factor in my becoming full blown manic. I have been full blown manic now three times, but in all three cases the same trigger caused the episode, so I just avoid that trigger and I haven’t had an episode since, which has been five years. I consider myself permanently slightly depressed, with no mood swings. Yet the diagnosis of bipolar I sticks with you forever. I am experiencing withdrawal symptoms from Abilify as we speak, my final psych drug. I will be med free from here on. Hopefully there will be some healing in my brain, and if the “permanently depressed” is a result of the psych drugs, that would be unfortunate, but again, perhaps healing is possible even from that. I wonder if there are other cases like mine from previous Prozac users who have become an odd case of bipolar in that they don’t have mood swings?

  • Well my case may be unusual. Seeing there is an entire web site here critical of psyciatric drugs, I am guessing there are many others like my case though. All three of the full blown manic episodes I have had were triggered by participating in online discussion forums. So it is a simple matter of my avoiding such forums and I no longer get manic. I’m not sure if I have “recovered” from bipolar, but just have accepted it and mitigated it by avoiding my trigger. I probably have a small amount of depression permanently, however, the anti depressants don’t seem to do anything over the long term. I don’t have mood swings. I don’t even get hypomanic even though in the past I have a few times. So perhaps I have recovered to a certain extent. I don’t have a problem with labels, and I don’t have a problem with hospitals. The first hospital I went to was not a bad experience. The second hospital I refer to as a resort — there were only about 5 of us and I had my own room, and I played cards with the staff. I have documented my case in a blog if anyone wants to read it. I call it a short memoir now. http://broadcastingtoheaven.blogspot.com . I hope that isn’t too self promoting or off topic.

  • I have bipolar I, but am finally med-free, and psychiatrist-free, thanks in part to reading this web site.

    What I would have liked to seen slowed down in my experience is the rush to medicate people in the mental hospital during a full blown manic/psychotic episode in order to minimize the cost / length of stay in the hospital. http://willhall.net/opendialogue/ — Open Dialogue in recent years, and John Weir Perry http://www.global-vision.org/papers/JWP.pdf decades ago showed that psychosis can be extinguished without prescription drugs. I would like to have tried meditation over medication when I was hospitalized two times, even if that meant a stay of four weeks rather than two.

    The amount of money on psychiatric visits and medication since I was hospitalized has probably been more than the extra cost associated with a longer hospital stay. If you are safe in a mental hospital, there would be no additional “disaster” taking place. At the very least it should be up to the patient whether to take meds in a mental hospital, or to be given an alternative longer stay without meds. I think it is unjust to present only one choice, which forces people to become hooked on psych drugs, which are difficult to quit and which your average psychiatrist will not advocate quitting, but instead staying on forever, when they are really just needed perhaps temporarily in cases like mine anyways, and as I mention in this post, most likely not needed at all.

  • Wow those numbers are pretty significant. My mother’s friends keep passing away over time. She plays bridge but the bridge players numbers are declining. It’s probably a good thing I live with her. I get free rent but she really likes having me around at age 90. In my case I’m in my 50’s but I have friends at work. I am happier when I see my two teenage children which is about every other weekend at this point, due to divorce.

  • A psychotherapist I gather Dr Cornwall is more effective because of going through their own psychotherapy before they get licensed. I think you have the advantage to have the psychosis experience which other professionals don’t. So they can never fully understand psychosis. They can come close to understanding it if they use an open mind and read all the stuff that is available such as can be found on this web site that describes it and makes sense of it hopefully. You make a very good point about it possibly being a phobia. It might also be that they feel better about themselves sticking to an “us vs. them” mentality where they are OK while the others are not?