Sunday, June 26, 2022

Comments by SHernandez1104

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  • I don’t know what to say or explain how I feel or where I am currently at. All I know is, I lost my only son, my oldest of three children, on the 4th of November, 2015 to suicide. To be honest, this is the first time I have put that in writing. I can’t, at this time go into the details, because of nothing more than the fact that it hurts too much to do so. My son was 14 years old.

    Reading the original article and the replies, have not given me hope. They have not provided me with anything to figure out how to recover.

    What they have done is provided me with some comfort that my family is not alone. I am not angry at my son. I am hurt. I feel guilt. Furthermore, being a father, I feel as though my pain should be mine and only mine. As though I shouldn’t share it, because I am a “man”.

    They have provided me with words I needed. Words I couldn’t come up with on my own, at this time. Despite friends and families best efforts, so many have unknowingly done things that are on my personal list of “don’ts”. Some continue to do so. All because I have been more concerned with saving their feelings; I had not realized how much it hurts me to endure it, nor that I don’t need to, until I read these posts.

    I hope that soon, I will be able to write a better reply. I regret that I share the experience with so many of you. I wish I didn’t, but knowing there are others does provide some comfort. Thank you all for sharing. I needed it. Thank You.