I believe in my grief
I believe in my suffering, despair, fear and trauma
I believe in my struggle to find an existence in the world
And in my need for safe spaces
I believe in my need for support
And in my need to be heard and believed
I believe in myself as an artist
And creator of my journey
I believe in my culture and identity
I believe in grace, gratitude and love
I believe in my truth
And in finding ways for my truth and my reality
To be in the world
However,
Although I have been looking for some time,
I have found
No evidence which leads me to believe
In the existence of mental illness,
Or any lasting positive effects of mental health drugs.
I believe, therefore, that these are strongly believed myths
on which medical and social structures are based.
If I speak the truth to my psychiatrist, he would say
“She has no insight into her mental illness.”
Which one of us would you say is the more deluded?
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