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  • Heartbreaking after reading your story. My story was published in Mad in America last year.

    https://www.madinamerica.com/2021/08/polydrugged-12-drugs-insomnia/

    There are many of us being hurt or injured by psych drugs. Big pharma and unethical psychiatrists made a lot of money of making many people sick and even lost their lives. Karma will come one day. I am bedridden and unable to work due to chemical injuries. Despite of chemical injuries, I have physical injuries to my legs and ears. Both of my legs have been twisted by my abusive husband, I am physically disabled and 24 hours in pain. Doctor saw from my MRI and commented that my cartridge has broken and my ligament has torn. I have 24 hours tinnitus and hyperacusis after a hard slap from my younger brother. My life is miserable. I am glad you have the approval from Pengasos and planning to visit Switzerland next month. I am still suffering, but I would like to wish you all the best !

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  • Heartbreaking after reading your story. My story was published in Mad in America last year.

    https://www.madinamerica.com/2021/08/polydrugged-12-drugs-insomnia/

    There are many of us being hurt or injured by psych drugs. Big pharma and unethical psychiatrists made a lot of money of making many people sick and even lost their lives. Karma will come one day. I am bedridden and unable to work due to chemical injuries. Despite of chemical injuries, I have physical injuries to my legs and ears. Both of my legs have been twisted by my abusive husband, I am physically disabled and 24 hours in pain. Doctor saw from my MRI and commented that my cartridge has broken and my ligament has torn. I have 24 hours tinnitus and hyperacusis after a hard slap from my younger brother. My life is miserable. I am glad you have the approval from Pengasos and planning to visit Switzerland next month, finally you can end your torture. I wish to end my torture too. I hope I will have some fund to follow your path.

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  • Dear Magdalene,

    I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

    Yes, socio-cultural influences on my adult decision to turn to and consent to biomedical psychiatry. I did not know she sent me to take poisonous psych drugs which would harm to my brain, nerve and organs. I realized it later but it was too late. She kept sending me to take more and more drugs as she blindly believed unethical psychiatrist.

    My mother (I lost my dad in 2012)/my ancestral (Chinese) culture have had on my adult decision to see psychiatrists and agree to prescribed drugs. I respected and trusted her, so I ended up with 12 drugs and more than 30 symptoms. I did not want to take those drugs after I have done research in the internet and joined facebook group, my husband opened my mouth and forced me to take these drugs, otherwise he beat me. He thought not to waste my money as my mother spent my money to send me to the hell. He said: You must take all these drugs so that your money has spent.

    If I know the danger of these psych drugs, I should have refused my mother’s suggestion to see psychiatrists and ingest psychotropic drugs.

    Parents in Malaysia normally do not insist that their children/adult children to see psychiatrists. I really have no idea what’s wrong with my mother, she should not give a bad suggestion to ruin my life. I am disabled mentally and physically now. I need donation if you can help. My PayPal email is [email protected]

    I do not have painful emotions regarded in my country/culture and family, I was perfectly healthy mentally and physically. I was a happy and always travel to many countries. Medical doctor professionals are highly regarded in Malaysian society, patients respect them so they simply prescribed psych drugs as they wanted to make patients become their permanent customers. People do not routinely ask their doctor questions, they tend to obey medical-doctors unquestioningly, as elite authority figures, this is what my ignorant mom did to me and this is how she ruined my life. I asked the unethical psychiatrists, I feel my brain is weird after being prescribed with 12 drugs. Will I go crazy? He said it is OK, just take all the drugs I prescribed to you, just stopped the drugs prescribed by the previous psychiatrists, this meant he asked me to cold turkey. He seem did not know the danger of cold turkey and did not bother about patients’ withdrawal symptoms. I was in withdrawal, he kept put me on more drugs. My ignorant mother trusted these professionals and I was injured.
    Parents do comfort their young children, such as when they cannot sleep (because they are afraid of the dark, have had some bad dreams, are experiencing bullying or other similar issues at school). However, my mother never comfort me as I was quite independent and never bother her. I only bother her when I was polydrugged and my head was like exploding and my heart was like beating fast. She ignored me and goes out everyday to enjoy herself, shopping, walking in the park, picnic and napping. She ignored my suffering after sending me to the hell. I was healthy and able to work before I was poisoned.

    Yes, some parents in my country-culture, show patience, warmth, empathy, presence, unconditional love-acceptance, time and compassion for their children and other fellow adult aged people’s emotional upset, sadness, tears, worry, fear and all other forms of distress.
    Yes, some parents and other adult authority figures (e.g. teachers) admonish children and fellow adults’ painful emotions, such as with directions like, ‘don’t cry’? (Is corporal punishment, like caning, administered in Malaysia.

    Yes, I have shared details of your credentials and career/business achievements.
    In my country-culture, I was a successful person, but I can’t do anything now, I lost all my pride and dignity, my ‘achievement,’ career performance (without taking me off such as for physical illness or other unexpected contingencies), work-employment-money, no more prestige credentials and material ‘success’. I feel pressure not able to work, but I have to reveal ‘weakness’ or to suppress a need to rest/take time off to recuperate. I have to warn people the danger of psych drugs. There is no cure for my tinnitus as I have physical injury from the slap. My knees pain is caused by my husband and it is osteoarthritis now. He injured my cartilage, I bought glucosamine and hope it will relieve my pain, but the doctor said no guarantee. After my husband injured me, I wanted to make a police report but my mom did not support or take any action. She just ignored my pain, she is inhuman and cruel. In fact, I have given her all my money in the past 25 years when I was able to work.
    I do not have pressure when I was healthy, I was an independent lady. In Malaysia, parents, employers, teachers, politicians-government, religious or other authority figures, peers, family, communities and oneself play important role in making decision.

    Finally, when I initially consented to see a psychiatrist-doctor because I could not sleep due to feeling emotional worry about my eye, I never expect to see psychiatrist, I never think of psychiatrist in my mind, my emotional worry has gone after 2 weeks after my right eye cured. Unfortunately, I was sent to the hell on the 3rd day of my insomnia. Since then, my life has changed.

    I do not know how to set up a follow-up blog article for MIA, perhaps you can help. I need financial help as I have lost my job and bedridden since last June. I have spent some time to answer all your questions. We can keep in touch in FB messenger. I would be glad if you can contribute a bit to my PayPal. Thank you so much!

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  • Yes, my anxiety about my inflamed eye caused my insomnia, but I never have depression or mental issue. I was prescribed 12 unnecessary drugs for my insomnia. My inflamed right eye cured after 2 weeks, I should have not follow her to the hell and made me living in the hell with more than 30 symptoms.

    Anyway, I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • Thank you William.

    Yes, I regretted so much, I should not trust my mother and followed her to see ‘doctors’. When I had insomnia because of my worry of my inflamed right eye. I never expect she sent me to the hell. I had very bad reactions (feeling like head was exploding and heart palpitation, agitated and akathisia), I did research and told her the side effects, she just couldn’t believe as she blindly believed unethical psychiatrists. My life has been ruined by her ignorance. I lost my health, my brain, my organs (eye, ears, bladder, heart) and nerve (I can never take any nap or else I would be jerked awaken).

    I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • Thank you for your wishes. I vowed I would never go near psychiatry again. My ignorant mom has sent me to the hell again and again, I ended up taking 12 poisonous drugs. I told her many stories and research from the internet and my suffering of more than 30 symptoms, unfortunately she did not want to listen. This made me very angry, especially when I was on Seroquel. This drug caused me numb, heart pain and aggressive. I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • Thank you Lauren.

    I have taken 12 poisonous drugs, however I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • My story is sad and misforture. I was being forced by my ignorant mother to take these 12 poisons. I am suffering and being kicked out from the house. I am renting a room outside. I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. My husband believed unethical psychiatrists as he has no idea the damages caused by these psych drugs. He forced me to take these poisons, otherwise he turned to be an abusive monster. He beat me, kicked me, slapped me, poured water to make me wet, he did whatever he could to force me to take these 12 poisons. The main reason he gave me: As your mom spent all your savings to send you to see psychiatrists, you should not waste these drugs, you should take all these drugs. My life has been ruined by them, my two younger brothers also never understand the side effects of these psych drugs. They had no idea why I was in anger, aggressive, brain fog and akathisia after taking Seroquel and other drugs. I joined many facebook groups and found out the damages caused to many people. My mom is suck ! She kicked me out from the house and let me suffering alone. I am renting a small room in an apartment.

    I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • I have just undergone vitrectomy surgery to remove eye floaters on 17th of Sept (last month). Eye floaters are clump of liquified vitreous in our eye. Our eyes are made up of crystal clear vitreous, my eye floaters are due to sudden increment of high dosage of two psych drugs – Seroquel from 100 to 400 mg and Epilim 800 mg. I had neuro toxin and my left ear was swollen, then I saw a black worm is moving around in my left vision (my right eye had vitrectomy surgery many years ago). This surgery will cause cataract but I have to accept this risk as I need to remove annoying eye floater.
    In fact, I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • My mother ignored my suffering and trusted unethical psychiatrists blindly. I am so disappointed with her and moved out from her house. I used to pay all the expenses for the whole family including my younger brothers. My dad passed away many years ago, I am the only breadwinner or financial supporters of the family. I lost everything and still bedridden. I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • You are right. in Jan this year, I contacted a few local media but they dare not publish my story as they all scared of backlash. I do not have money to travel as I lost my job as a senior lecturer and translator last June. I need some donation. I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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  • I have weaned off the last drug – Seroquel on 21st of August. I was in agitation, heart pain, akathisia and many other symptoms. I couldn’t sleep well and lose of appetite. Both of my knees have been injured by my husband, I have tinnitus as my younger brother slapped me and ruptured my eardrum. I am bedridden most of the time. Let’s keep in touch in facebook messenger.

    https://www.facebook.com/grace.tan.33483/

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