My Healing Protocol Detailed


healingSomeone in one of my healing groups asked me the below question, as I’ve been rapidly getting healthier and people are noticing.

Monica what do you think has been helping you the most to get better?

I didn’t really know how to answer and made this response:

gosh . . . it’s like a snowball effect so I don’t know…my whole life is about living well . . . it’s EVERYTHING. I trust my gut . . . and it’s like I’m given guidance now . . .  and I have FAITH. it’s just all coming together . . . Not sure how to answer . . . I might be able to answer better if you have a more specific question

Later I figured I’d answer by putting this post together for her and my readers here and on Beyond Meds. The bottom line is that everything I do is important. Yup, again, Everything matters It’s impossible for me to determine exactly what is doing what! It all works together synergistically. It’s all part of the holistic whole that is my life.

Below, in no particular order, are many of my daily practices which are always subject to change.

Yoga — I practice daily at home anywhere from 5 minutes to an hour, sometimes that hour is broken up into several mini sessions. I listen to my body and do what it needs as it needs it. I take yoga classes in the community 1 to 3 times a week. I have found a studio that is highly respectful of my process and so I often leave classes before they are over. I set my mat up in the back near the exit and quietly leave when my nervous system has had enough. This is very important as yoga is powerful and getting better and healthy has required learning to very intently respond to the needs of my body. So, yes, you can even do too much yoga. More from Beyond Meds: YOGA

Diet — my diet has been constantly evolving for many years now and it’s been critical that I learn to experiment and listen to how that which I put in my body affects me. What is optimal for me can change daily. It’s been vitally important that I be willing to make even radical changes at time. Those changes for me, however, came slowly and in baby steps at first. The more I got attuned to my body the more things became clear. But it’s certainly involved many steep learning curves. I always recommend patience and the willingness to take baby steps when it comes to diet. Also my needs continue to evolve and change, so it’s an adventure everyday. I’ve done several elimination diets over the years. Currently I don’t eat gluten, dairy, soy, nightshades. I only eat sugar by way of whole fruits and veggies. And because of my histamine issues I have other somewhat odd limitations but they are evolving and as I heal become less and less of a burden. More from Beyond Meds: Nutrition and gut health

Epsom salt baths — I can’t say exactly why these are so great and healing and vital, but there are lots of ideas on the web as to why they’re so fantastic. All I know is they  were absolutely critical to my surviving for a good long while and I still find them to be an important part of self-care. More from Beyond Meds: Healing bath: for anyone who hurts or simply needs to relax

Ecstatic dance — This is my latest addition to my movement disciplines. I love it so much I can’t even tell you how important it is to me. I am generally so overwhelmed by joy when I go to my weekly dances that at some point or another I am in tears. Watching all the other human beings dance about me is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever experienced. Everyone is profoundly beautiful when they are dancing ecstatically. It’s as simple as that. It doesn’t matter what body type we have or what sort of clothing we are wearing. It’s astonishing and healing to see other human beings let loose like this. And then to also join them. Indescribable. Insight and healing seems to just dump upon me while in movement. We lost something when we stopped the tribal dance. The good thing is it seems we can get it back. More from Beyond Meds: Ecstatic Dance

Meditation: I meditate daily. It varies how much because it’s seamlessly integrated into my life at this point. I write about how that came about here:  Life as a meditation: my contemplative adventure. I also have several collections about meditation here: Meditation is the practice of learning to pay attention. That is all. And for many inspirational quotes and thoughts from others as well, scroll down this list of posts: Meditation

Lately herbal teas have been helping me a lot. See:  I Actually Woke up This Morning Thinking I’d Arrived, I’m Well —  I say in that article:

I’m learning plant medicine lately and herbs are seriously helping my healing along now. It’s really revelatory and wonderful. I understand now why shamans, etc., talk about plant spirits . . . it truly feels like an intelligence permeating my consciousness with its own . . . the merging of the different consciousnesses is a synergistic healing experience. Being hypersensitive is actually fun at these times . . . it’s like I’m tripping all the time (mildly and in a good way) . . . and it’s all tons of really good, informative data that aids healing and produces insights about life and living in general.

I would not have tolerated any of the herbs I’m using now the first several years after getting off the drugs . . . and in fact it’s likely I would not have tolerated them six months ago either. Yes, one of the herb teas I’ve been drinking set me off pretty badly about six months ago.

Also to be clear, I feel everything I eat on an energetic level. That is how the hypersensitivity registers in part. So every food, drink I ingest there is an energetic correlate. Nature, exercise etc also affects me this way. The thing is it’s all starting to make sense and not be so overwhelming and the herbs are helping in a huge and lovely way. (read more here)

The teas that have been most helpful for my nervous system calming and healing have been: Oatstraw, Red Clover, White Peony and Chamomile. I have also been using Lemon Balm and Holy Basil in very small doses as needed. I drink tea, I don’t take pills. This allows for very careful administration. Sometimes all I take is a tablespoon of the steeped tea. I have had some not so nice experiences as I learn what my body likes best. I react to some of the teas that most people find very mild. Please experiment with great caution if you are in psychiatric drug withdrawal. I, in fact, wouldn’t recommend a lot of this in early withdrawal if you have severe symptoms. As I mention above, it’s clear to me I would not have tolerated most and maybe not any of what I’m doing with herbs just 6 months ago and for several years before that. Hypersensitivity is normal among many of us with psychiatric drug withdrawal syndromes. Be careful.

So far, I’ve learned the most from Susun Weed‘s work. She also has lots of information on the internet.

I always use the internet liberally when I’m learning new things (google is your friend). So I’ve gotten bits and pieces of information in many places. Here is another book: Plant Spirit Medicine: The Healing Power of Plants

A few final things I do that are also important: I walk in the woods almost daily, often barefoot. I swim in a salt water pool once or twice a week. I follow my gut on a daily basis! That means everything is always subject to change and that this list is by no means exhaustive.

Everyone who heals is going to have a different list of things they find helpful. Finding mine (and continuing to find it daily) has been an adventure that I now greatly appreciate.

Below are some posts that have additional tips on coping and healing in general. My habits are always changing.

If you’re curious about what I’m healing here are a couple of posts that offer history. I was bedridden for a couple of years and home bound for several. Things are clearly changing:




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  1. Monica,
    Its good to hear you are doing so well. I have always admired your courageous battle and how no matter how you felt , even when there were many times that you said at Beyond Meds, that you were unable to communicate with others because your state was to fragile, you still always have left a way for readers to get help and to help others through your wonderful website. I always knew you would succeed in totally arriving at vibrant health. I know that reaching out to help another is a part of healing oneself.
    I just wondered if you ever had any mercury silver amalgam dental fillings properly removed and replaced with composites, if you ever tried Homeopathy or Bach Flower remedies ?
    Best Wishes and Thank You

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    • thanks Fred.
      I haven’t had fillings removed. I only have a couple and it’s not been something that feels necessary…I’ve researched it extensively and come to that for the time being…for a long time I couldn’t make appointments or see doctors or dentists…I have yet to make it to a dentist actually and will revisit it once I manage to get in to see a holistic dentist.

      Homeopathy has at times been helpful, but generally only briefly. Those who mock homeopathy have no clue what a hypersensitive body can feel…so I do know that it can be powerful medicine.

      I’m allergic to alcohol and therefore do not do well with flower remedies…but I know that they can be very powerful as well…I have done well with flower essences in oils etc…aromatherapy is very powerful too and I’ve done a couple of posts on that.

      thank you for all your support and comments over time Fred

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  2. Hi Monica,
    Thank you so much for this article and all of your work-both in your own healing as inspiration for many and sharing the resources and tools you’ve found.

    Did discontinuing nightshades have any impact on your emotional well being? I’ve seen some articles about it reducing inflammation.

    Thank you,

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    • most of my healing methods are focused on healing the iatrogenic damage from the drugs…it’s about physical healing, really…so yes, I was shooting for diminishing inflammation…the drug withdrawal can cause pretty insane chronic pain and also seem to quite often exacerbate any sort of pre-existing auto-immune disease which also has a lot of inflammation involved.

      I have psoriatic arthritis as a result and it’s highly recommended that folks with any form of psoriasis not eat nightshades. It’s helped all sorts of things as far as I can tell in the pain department….not just the psoriasis and the arthritis.

      Also, quite a few clinical studies have, indeed, linked inflammation to depression too…and so it’s fair to say that people will feel better mentally too if they minimize inflammation in the body. I don’t really separate mental and physical anymore…we are profoundly holistic beings. If we don’t feel well physically it impacts the mind and vice versa…so…in the end I always seek foundational, total well-being.

      thanks very much for your comment

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    • I never saw this comment cheshirecat, sorry. St. John’s Wort is a potent herb and helpful to some folks some of the time time.

      I have personally found that I don’t process MAOIs well…and they make me sick..this includes foods and supplements and herbs that are high in natural MAOIs…St John’s Wort, therefore, messes with me pretty badly.

      It can also trigger manic like symptoms in some people…that may also be an MAOI sensitivity, I don’t know.

      I would get some tea bags with it and make a tea and sip it in tiny bits and see how you do. I also don’t generally think herbs should be used like drugs…EVERY SINGLE DAY…our bodies change…day to day and month to month and with age and with the seasons etc etc etc…

      I don’t take any herbs daily. I respond to my body daily and it’s always changing.

      allopathic medicine treats our bodies as if they were inert…that is largely what makes allopathic medicine highly toxic…really.

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