Tag: nervous breakdown

Starting out with what were called “nervous breakdowns,” my father was eventually diagnosed with schizophrenia and incarcerated in the state mental hospital for the last twenty years of his life.

The more we worry about the separation from reality, the more scared we get and the more separated we get. This month I found out about another trap. When you can see the beauty and spirituality and mystery and magic of what is going on, it's tempting to do things to make it last longer and help yourself get further into it, like skip sleep or skip meals or use drugs. I had to fight those temptations often through this month, and still am, to be honest, because there is so much of this process that was not just scary, but glorious and giganticly interdimensional and impactful.