Gabapentin Withdrawal: One Year Later

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In my first article, I went into detail about my initial withdrawal experience with Gabapentin. If you remember, I was absolutely clueless that Gabapentin could cause physical dependency so quickly and lead to devastating withdrawal symptoms. Since stopping Gabapentin, I have had to, unfortunately, deal with withdrawal symptoms that have impacted my daily life in some way almost every day. Even after a failed cold turkey of 600mgs in December 2021, a successful reinstatement of 200mgs in January 2022, and a four-month taper, I was utterly unprepared for this experience. And even though I was only on the medication for a little over six months, I am still traveling down the long road of psychiatric drug withdrawal.

Over the past year, I have learned a lot and would like to share more about this experience with the hope of helping others. As I am writing this, there are currently over 15 thousand members in the Gabapentin/Lyrica support group that I am a member of. Many have experienced life-changing withdrawal symptoms while tapering off of Gabapentinoids, and have suffered for years. I am simply one member with my own unique story. And so, in this article, I would like to share with you what has happened over the past year since I stopped taking Gabapentin.

Perhaps I would not be in this position if I had tapered to 0.1 mgs of Gabapentin. It’s impossible to know for sure, but at the time, I believed I could get off this medication quickly because I had only been on it for a few months. While I did taper some, I got to the point where I felt like putting the medication in my body for even more time would do more harm than good, so I stopped the drug on the morning of May 25, 2022. Here is what has happened since that day.

I have tried to keep track of all the symptoms I have experienced over the past year. For those of us who have experienced psychiatric withdrawal, finding language to describe some of our symptoms can almost be impossible. I cannot tell you how often I have said throughout this past year, “I’m not sure how to describe what I am experiencing.” This feeling, of course, brings more suffering because we often feel misunderstood and isolated. I have felt these emotions, and they can be overwhelming at times. While I cannot go into exhaustive detail about every symptom I have dealt with, I would like to give some detail at least so that other travelers on this challenging journey might be able to relate.

Because there is such little knowledge available regarding Gabapentinoid withdrawal, no one knows how long the acute withdrawal phase lasts. According to the moderators of the Facebook support group I am in, in their opinion, acute withdrawal can last anywhere between two weeks and six months. I believe that my acute phase was around one month. During this period, I primarily experienced the following: internal vibrations in my head and throughout my back, burning skin on my hip, fatigue, twitching throughout my legs, and visual distortions. I consider myself fortunate to recognize that the acute phase did not last as long as it could have. Nevertheless, withdrawal’s windows and waves phase has not exactly been a walk in the park.

Once the first month had passed, I began to experience some bothersome and debilitating withdrawal symptoms that occurred in unpredictable waves. In months 2-3 post discontinuation, I experienced minor akathisia spells when trying to sleep. There were times when I felt like my body was internally jerking. I was not moving at all, but it felt like the inside of my body would randomly jolt (truthfully, I don’t know how else to describe this sensation). Waves of skin burning, headaches, and fatigue also occurred, and I could never predict when they would randomly arise.

During months 4-6 after stopping Gabapentin, I primarily experienced nerve pain throughout most of my body, body temperature dysregulation, formication and tingling in my arms, pounding headaches that occurred whenever I was walking, and of course, the dreaded internal vibrations that had been with me since the first day I started tapering off of the drug. Again, many of these symptoms would come for a week or two and then be replaced by another painful problem. This was less than ideal.

Months 7-9 saw an increase in my internal tremors. For the most part, I had primarily experienced these tremors in my back and head. However, now they had also spread to my legs, and it felt like an internal earthquake was occurring in my body 24/7. Shortly after this happened, right around Christmas in 2022, I experienced my first window of relief. Of course, it only lasted a few days, but I finally felt as I entered 2023 that my body was healing. Throughout the rest of this period, after my short experience of feeling good, I dealt with a solid week of feeling dizzy and disoriented whenever I walked, which was then replaced by a week of internal body jerking whenever I was standing up, and then a week of very intense nerve pain through my entire body. Also, my vision problems were back, and strangely, I started dealing with light sensitivity. Every time I look up at the blue sky or am outside on a sunny day, I deal with seeing visual snow. It seems so strange that this is now just showing up.

In months 10-12, I have had an increase in moments of feeling better. For the most part, my internal tremors have decreased in intensity. I actually traveled outside of the state by plane for a few days for my bachelor party, which was a significant accomplishment for me. The stress of air travel and being away from home did lead to a few days of intensified withdrawal symptoms, but I am starting to have better and better days. In month 11, I had about a week of random head pressure. It was such a weird feeling and made zero sense. My energy is definitely getting better now, and I go on walks often. The internal tremors have intensified as I get close to being off for a year, so that has not been fun.

As I enter year 2 of withdrawal, I look forward to my brain and body hopefully experiencing even more healing. For most people in the support group, complete recovery seems to take closer to two years in total. I am hopeful that this is my story as well. While I would say that I spend most of my time now looking forward to the future, I still think it’s important to reflect on the actual reality of this experience.

For example, in 2022, I could not work full-time due to withdrawal. I lost thousands of dollars of income and a teaching job that I would have considered my dream job. I was disbelieved by many doctors, hospital workers, psychiatrists, and friends during this experience. I was told that my issues had to be related to post-COVID, and there was no way that this was psychiatric drug withdrawal.

I endured loss after loss after loss. But here I stand, and I am grateful to be alive.

I now advocate for those enduring the long hard road of psychiatric drug withdrawal and try to share my experience as much as possible. I have joined another online support group, the Inner Compass Exchange, which discusses and rethinks psychiatric diagnoses and drugs, and I have also connected with many amazing people. I genuinely want to do my part to help others on their pathway to recovery. So that is why I continue to share.

Since my first article was published, many people have sought me out on social media to either thank me for sharing or seek advice on how to come off of Gabapentin or Lyrica safely. It’s funny because, trust me, I am no expert and no one special. What happened to me is that I unexpectedly went through the wringer of psychiatric drug withdrawal and felt like I could not keep this experience to myself. Everything online that you read mostly says that Gabapentin withdrawal only lasts for a few weeks. But thousands upon thousands of people would beg to differ.

Your experience will be different from mine, and I hope and pray it is easier. This is the hardest thing I have ever endured, and even now, I struggle to find words to describe what has happened to me. But I will continue to move forward and speak up about the need for informed consent before taking psychiatric medication. As I mentioned, I had no clue this could happen and was completely taken aback. So hopefully, in reading this second part of my story, you will not be unprepared like me but will rather be equipped with more knowledge and information about what at least could happen to you when coming off of a Gabapentinoid.

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Matt Manry
Matt Manry is a former pastor and teacher. He currently works for a small SEO company in Atlanta, GA as he tries to recover from an iatrogenic injury caused by Gabapentin. He loves Atlanta sports, his wonderful girlfriend, and books, and hopes to return to working with his outstanding students once he has recovered.

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    • Dear Livingpast27,

      In so far as we may still lack any universally agreed definition of what the psyche or the mind or the soul might be, and given that we seem a long way from understanding how “psychoactive” drugs/substances interact with different brains, never mind(!) speculating about how our very brains can themselves manufacture vast ranges of seemingly physical signs as well as symptoms (I refer anyone interested to the works of John E. Sarno and of Howard Schubiner), I reckon you have a point, dear Livingpast27.

      But perhaps quantum physics is actually way less incomprehensible than all that?

      I am no Christian (I believe that nothing and everything and at least infinitely more is “God,” and, at least ultimately, at least infinitely more than infinitely good…) and can’t say that Jesus of Nazareth even lived let alone said any of the stuff ascribed to him but I do like to view him, 2,000 years or so before Ambrose Bierce, Niels Bohr, Albert Einstein and Richard Feynman, Paul Dirac et al as a father of quantum physics.

      Some 300 or so years before him, mind you, perhaps Zhuangzi was a mother or midwife of quantum mechanics?:

      “Once upon a time, I dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was myself. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man.”

      Reportedly, anyway, Jesus told mere mortal men (“What are men? “Mortal gods. What are gods? Immortal men.” – Heraclitus) “You are the light of the world!”

      Perhaps he meant, “the light of Consciousness” and was referring to that to which Niels Bohr read about when he went “into the Upanishads to ask questions” – “not that which the eyes sees, but that by which the eye sees,” etc?

      Reportedly, anyway, Jesus said, “My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?”

      Perhaps he was beating John Wheeler to the Many Worlds Interpretation?

      https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Many-worlds_interpretation

      Reportedly, Jesus traveled around preaching repentance/metanoia/transformation of consciousness…and “the Kingdom of Heaven/”God/the Father.”

      If he used heaven/the heavens – the skies – to represent the realm of formless consciousness to folks who had no words for such a notion, then perhaps he was using the finest analogy he could find to refer to that which quantum physicists insist can and does influence/determine the state of (at the very least) subatomic particles?

      When the daughter of the Canaanite woman was reportedly “healed instantly,” (as I like to believe she was), was this not a demonstration of “spooky action at a distance” – of the instantaneous response of “an entangled particle” to a transformation of consciousness of one or more other entangled particles at a distance?
      https://www.goodnews.ie/canaanite.shtml

      Reportedly, Jesus said, “All things are possible to one who believes.”

      Perhaps he was beating Einstein to the point that “imagination encircles the world,” and that the extent to which we can (truly) access other worlds/universes is limited only by the limits of our imaginations?

      https://youtu.be/_we4rXCWm-s

      Had our contemporary coercive psychiatry/state sanctioned deprivation of every human right, up to and including life itself – if by “life” one means the enjoyment of one’s own states of consciousness unsullied by forcible drugging – and our modern psychotropic drugs such as gabapentin been available to Jesus’s family/friends at the time, perhaps he, too, would have been…Mark 3:21: https://www.biblegateway.com/verse/en/Mark%203%3A21

      All the mysteries and complexities of quantum physics may well be discoverable, soluble, and finite; those of the human mind, not. And, of course, we all know what Einstein said of human stupidity, don’t we?

      But I reckon we are all in this together and, ultimately, that there there are no good guys or bad guys…and that everything, at least, is “God.”

      Thanks to Matt and to MIA for two very wonderful essays, and for all the many agonies, those sacrifices which produced them.

      Matt, I am praying for your own intentions, and, should they include it, for complete recovery, and more, and that, though you may walk in the valley of…you may fear no lasting ill, whatsoever, but anticipate a glorious emergence to greater health, strength and joy than ever before for yourself and for all whom you encounter and assist.

      And thank you, Livingpast27, for your wonderfully thought-provoking comment.

      Tom.

      “…for we are all as God made us, and frequently much worse.” – Sancho Panza.

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  1. I went cold turkey in July after Paxil since 1995. I’ve been discussing a lot of the same symptoms with my doctor and despite being very knowledgeable about Paxil withdrawals I did not realize just how many of my symptoms can be attributed to the withdrawals.

    Healthcare professionals are becoming much better about acknowledging what they don’t know about psych drugs and listening to patients about their harms. They may not be able to help but the fact more are listening is a sign organizations like MIA are having real effect on where it matters.

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  2. I had terrible withdrawal from a few months on Lyrica. This was shortly after the drug came out, so there wasn’t much information about withdrawal online. Doctors thought I was making it up, eventually cut off my prescription while I was trying to taper.

    I had a lot of weird symptoms at first, but the ones that lasted the longest was the hot flashes and waking up at night with my heart racing and not being able to get back to sleep. It took a couple years to get back to feeling normal.

    Thanks for writing about your experience, hope it helps others.

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  3. Thank you for being so open, Mat. Doctors rarely like to admit the limits of their knowledge – like lawyers, mechanics and probably even pastors! To me, it seems the biggest gap in your treatment was the need to find somebody prepared to listen to your complaints and give you credibility. My profession often fails in that regard. I am a professor of family medicine in Australia and trying to teach the new generation of doctors to actually listen to their patients complaints. Chances are, there will be clues and pointers there if you just listen.

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