By Laurie Uhler
My life should never have taken the catastrophic turns that it did. I was a minivan-driving soccer mom and a devoted wife. I enjoyed a successful career as a pediatric audiologist working in a variety of fast-paced medical settings. I was well-liked, a loyal friend to many, and an active member of my community. My very vibrant and blessed life was obliterated by a perverse cascade of errors via a broken medical system. This affected my loved ones’ lives as profoundly as it did mine. Had medical providers looked for and addressed the root causes of the ailments for which I was treated, I’d still be driving that minivan.
It has taken me a long time and an immense amount of research to piece together and understand what happened to me. I would like to share my story for whatever understanding can do to ease the pain, and for whatever help it can offer to prevent others from experiencing what our family did. First and foremost, however, I want my husband and children to understand the truth of what happened to me.
I did not suddenly develop some perverse form of mental illness out of thin air. I was a victim of repeated misdiagnoses, unrecognized adverse drug reactions/drug toxicity, and profound polypharmacy. What I experienced is described in the literature as “medication-induced iatrogenic chronic health syndrome, or iatrogenic injury.” It is more common than one would think, and as readers of Mad in America will recognize, it destroys lives.
The First Hit: Toxic Mold Effects Misdiagnosed as Depression
The circumstances that led to my catastrophic outcome are cumulative. It was no one thing, but several hits to my system.
In the late 1990s, my husband and I were a happy, newly married couple enjoying a carefree dual-income lifestyle. We had successful and fulfilling careers, great friends, and loved life; the world was our oyster. Despite all this, however, we both found ourselves incredibly tired all the time and experienced frequent brain fog. My husband also began having recurrent sinus infections. I developed unrelenting headaches, fibromyalgia, dry eyes, vision issues, G.I. disturbance, frequent urination, skin rashes, excessive thirst, irregular menstruation, and disorientation—I was getting lost going to familiar places.
When we sought medical attention for this cluster of symptoms, we were both told we were suffering from mild depression and were prescribed an anti-depressant (SSRI). Neither one of us actually felt “depressed,” though. Yet, we trusted our doctors knew best and so took the antidepressant medication as prescribed.
It’s absurd that we were given a psychiatric diagnosis given the physiologic symptoms we were experiencing. More unbelievable is that we did not even question the doctor. I would later learn that the constellation of symptoms we had is consistent with toxic mold illness, a subcategory of biotoxin illness known as Chronic Inflammatory Reactive Syndrome (CIRS). I was, in fact, subsequently diagnosed with CIRS.
We unknowingly lived in a home with hidden toxic mold, where up to two feet of water collected in the crawlspace underneath the home seasonally every winter. The root cause of our symptoms, which doctors diagnosed as “depression,” was completely missed. We did not need antidepressant medication. We needed out of our water-damaged home and treatment for mold illness/CIRS. Instead, we got put on an unnecessary neurotoxic medication with serious adverse health risks
The Second Hit: IVF Treatments Lupron and Synarel
When we decided to start our family in 2000, I experienced infertility. My husband and I utilized in vitro fertilization (IVF) to conceive our two children. During this process, many different pharmaceuticals we prescribed to me. These drugs are commonly used to treat infertility and my doctors assured us the medications were “safe.”
As part of my IVF treatment protocols, I was given Lupron and Synarel. Both are antineoplastic agents, meaning they are cancer chemotherapy drugs, used off-label for fertility treatment. Like all antineoplastics, they are harmful to both cancerous and non-cancerous cells—particularly in pregnant women and developing fetuses. It’s incredibly scary that they are used to promote conception, isn’t it? They are neurotoxic and can induce systemic damage to the central nervous system, connective tissue, mitochondria, the immune system, etc. over time. Equally disturbing is that I was advised to stay on the antidepressant I was taking throughout my pregnancy—for a depressive disorder it turns out I never had.
When I requested to be tapered off of the SSRI before attempting to achieve pregnancy, I was told that the risks to a baby from his mother’s untreated depression were greater than any potential adverse effects of in-utero exposure to antidepressant medication. Really? This made absolutely no sense to me; the only qualifier for my diagnosis of mild depression was unrelenting fatigue. But the doctor had instilled terror in me that if I did not stay on an antidepressant during pregnancy, I would be irrevocably harming my child. So I reluctantly followed his advice, unaware that prenatal exposure to an SSRI can be damaging to a developing brain and nervous system. Both my children were born with severe nervous system dysregulation and have developmental and immunological issues.
I also learned that toxic mold exposure and SSRIs can both cause various hormonal issues. My infertility was due to anovulatory cycles (failure to ovulate), but this condition was likely induced by the antidepressants inappropriately prescribed to treat the effects of toxic mold. I had also been on hormonal birth control for many years prior to our attempts to conceive. Suffice it to say, I was not healthy when I attempted to get pregnant, but despite my compromised health, the fertility doctors added more toxic chemicals to my body burden.
The Third Hit: Fluoroquinolones
Both of my children were both born via Cesarean section-my daughter due to vasa previa, my son due to failure to descend. In each instance, I received IV Ciprofloxacin prophylactically to stave off potential infection.
Within a couple of days after receiving IV Cipro, I experienced acute onset of significant arm weakness and severe wrist pain, requiring me to use wrist guards for several months. Because of this, I had difficulty physically caring for my children after their births. I also experienced photosensitivity, hyperacusis (sensitivity to sound), drenching night sweats, constipation/G.I. distress, hair loss, hyperactivity, brain fog, short-term memory issues, and fatigue. Additionally, I had irritability, emotional blunting, and personality changes after my son’s C-section. All of these symptoms were much more severe after my son’s delivery and they did not ever resolve completely.
After my son’s birth, I was prescribed multiple consecutive courses of oral Levaquin plus steroids for persistent pneumonia I developed during the second trimester of my pregnancy with him. The concomitant use of steroids with fluoroquinolones exponentially magnified the damage to my body.
Cipro and Levaquin belong to the class of medication known as fluoroquinolones. According to the European Medicines Agency, “Fluoroquinolones are associated with prolonged (up to months or years), serious, disabling and potentially irreversible drug reactions affecting several, sometimes multiple, systems, organ classes, and senses.” And fluoroquinolone toxicity can lead to a systemic health cascade. Like antineoplastics, fluoroquinolones are essentially chemotherapy drugs that negatively impact the immune system, central nervous system, autonomic nervous system, and peripheral nervous system. They also alter DNA, cause mitochondrial and connective-tissue damage, and can trigger severe neuropsychiatric/cognitive issues. Increasingly, fluoroquinolone toxicity is being recognized as a chronic syndrome, very different from “allergic reactions in that it does not go away when the drug is stopped.
Following the fluoroquinolone exposures, my health declined significantly and systemically over the next several years. Extreme fatigue, fibromyalgia, persistent headache, head pressure, G.I. issues, recurrent infections, cognitive issues, muscle wasting, and visual disturbances were just some of the symptoms I experienced. I also began to develop multiple chemical sensitivities, food sensitivities, and electro-hypersensitivity. I have been told by physicians and researchers this is all consistent with fluoroquinolone toxicity, which can lead to a progressive health cascade. However, this syndrome went unrecognized and, instead I was prescribed larger doses of antidepressants, which only exacerbated my declining status.
The Fourth Hit: Multiple Bacteria, Viral, and Fungal Infections… and More Medications
Between 2010-2013, I was diagnosed with Lyme disease and multiple coinfections (Bartonella, Erichliosis, and Babesia) along with other persistent parasitic, fungal, bacterial and viral infections (ascariasis, candidiasis, mycoplasma, Epstein Bar, and HHV6). I also received diagnoses of ME/CFS and CIRS (see above). As my health had been declining for many years, I was relieved to finally discover what doctors thought was the “root” cause of all my symptoms, and I was eager to address it. I was a compliant patient and followed their complex protocols. Over the next six years, an utterly absurd number of different pharmaceuticals were prescribed to me as treatment (listed at the bottom of this post), including more rounds of fluoroquinolones (Levaquin, Avelox) and their “second cousins,” Mepron, Malarone, and Flagyl. The years of aggressive treatment proved disastrous.
Very well-intentioned doctors missed my pre-existing fluoroquinolone and SSRI toxicity. No regard was shown for the growing burden on my organs, most notably the liver and brain. My G.I. system was decimated by the dozens of antibiotics I took. Aggressive Lyme treatment involving years of polypharmacy only served to further poison me, further impairing my central nervous system and immune system.
The Fifth Hit: Sedatives and Anticonvulsants to Quiet the Immune System
After years of Lyme treatment and with my body’s medication toxicity already through the roof, the next approach my doctors came up with was to add Ativan, a benzodiazepine, and gabapentin, an anticonvulsant, to my regimen–both off-label. These drugs were prescribed to calm the mast-cell activation and aid the intractable insomnia I had developed. Fluoroquinolone exposure can trigger mast-cell activation. So can toxic mold exposure.
In February 2015, I suffered an immediate adverse drug reaction to gabapentin. Within the first day of beginning this medication, my handwriting changed. I could not walk straight and began dropping things. I had an obvious and immediate decrease in executive function and short-term memory, along with hyperactivity, twiddling my fingers, and other symptoms that I would later learn fall under the umbrella condition called akathisia. According to the Akathisia Alliance for Research and Advocacy, the condition ”is an extremely distressing neuropsychiatric syndrome with symptoms including severe agitation, inability to remain still and an overwhelming sense of terror implicated in many suicides and acts of violence. It is a medication side effect.”
I reported all this to my doctor, who instructed me to stay on the medication and that my body would “adjust with time.” These were not harmless “side effects” that would fade, however. They were a serious adverse drug reaction, which went unrecognized as such and led to more polypharmacy.
Progressing Neurotoxicity: Let’s Up the Doses of the Contributing Medications
Over the next several months, my cognition and proprioception (perception of my body’s position in space) continued to rapidly decline. Additionally, I experienced the onset of deeply troubling new symptoms: an extreme fear of being alone, intense inner restlessness, confusion, blurry vision, severe headache, hand tremor, worsening insomnia, terror, and derealization/ depersonalization. Repeated changes were made to my Lyme treatment protocol with the assumption that these new symptoms and decline were related to that chronic health condition. The gabapentin and Ativan doses were also increased. Changes were also made to the SSRI. The adverse drug reactions and increasing toxicity I was experiencing were missed completely and the additional pharmacy was only worsening it.
Something was very, very wrong; I just kept declining. In no way did my deterioration feel like it was simply an exacerbation of Lyme. By the fall of 2015, things had deteriorated to the point where I had to stop driving: my vision and motor skills had become too impaired. We had to hire household help and childcare because I had become essentially non-functional. I was acutely aware that my decline was negatively impacting my children and I wanted to make sure there was a capable adult in the home with them at all times. I even tried hiding in the bedroom, away from their view, because my presentation and behavior had become very disturbing and I knew it. I would later come to understand that all the new symptoms beginning with the adverse reaction to gabapentin were consistent with medication-induced akathisia.
Confirmation: It Was the Drugs All Along
In December 2015, after 10 months of searching for answers to my abrupt and progressive decline, I finally got confirmation from my doctor and own research that I was indeed experiencing numerous, severe negative effects of the psychiatric drugs I was on. As Dr. Peter Breggin has pointed out, “benzodiazepines can produce a wide variety of abnormal mental responses and hazardous behavioral abnormalities, including rebound anxiety and insomnia, psychosis, paranoia, violence, antisocial acts, depression, and suicide.” Similarly, gabapentin and other antiseizure drugs can cause a variety of behavior changes. Breggin cites the FDA’s warning that they can cause or exacerbate symptoms such as “anxiety, agitation, hostility, mania and hypomania,” which “may be precursors to emerging suicidality.”
I also learned that a slow, supervised taper off of these psychotropic medications was required for my safety. My doctor, therefore, referred me to a psychiatrist for a guided taper. I was not “addicted” to the medications; rather, my brain had become dependent on them and so cessation had to be gradual and monitored.
The psychiatrist advised me to first cross over from Ativan to another benzo, Valium, because it has a longer half-life and could help to reduce any inter-dose withdrawal effects. Then, once I was stable on an equivalent dose of Valium, I was to taper slowly off of that. She also wanted to add in other medications to counter the negative side effects of the withdrawal process.
Crossing over to Valium was extremely problematic for me. I experienced an immediate adverse reaction to it with increased agitation and pacing on the very first dose. (It turns out I cannot metabolize Valium properly.) Upon reporting this to my physician, she told me just to “go slower” with the process and things would “even out” over time. Despite my following her instructions, nothing “evened out.” I experienced ever-increasing negative and disturbing symptoms. I now understand that I suffered from multiple drug-to-drug interactions and adverse drug reactions, drug toxicity that went unrecognized. There was no question: I had developed medication-induced akathisia.
Even So, Let’s Add More Medications
To counter these growing negative effects, the doctors continually changed dosages of existing drugs and added many new ones, all trial and error, with no discernible rationale. This only worsened things, causing even more frightening and violent new or exacerbated symptoms—rapid pacing, twisting dystonia (involuntary muscle contractions), severe depersonalization, disinhibition, myoclonic jerking, derealization, panic, agitation, aggression, severe insomnia, paranoia, vocal tics including profanity, monophobia (fear of being alone), agoraphobia, rage, stuttering, disequilibrium, severe confusion, heart palpitations, visual disturbances, air hunger, motor slowing, oppositional behavior, and more. My environmental sensitivities also escalated.
After the cross-taper from Ativan to Valium made things worse, not better, at one point I was prescribed low-dose Seroquel, an antipsychotic, off label for the extreme insomnia I had developed on this cocktail of drugs. Off label use of low dose antipsychotics for insomnia is not recommended, and it was soon clear why: After Seroquel was added, I developed vocal tics, suicidal ideation, extreme terror, and delirium, and the pacing and other movements increased dramatically. Despite my reporting this immediate negative side effect of feeling intense agitation and rage, the doctors denied that a low dose of Seroquel could cause this effect and told me it must be due to an underlying or emerging psychiatric illness. Really? How do you suddenly develop severe psychiatric illness out of nowhere?
Prior to being put on Ativan and gabapentin and the subsequent polypharmacy, I had never before experienced suicidal ideation or the other extreme negative behavioral and cognitive changes I’ve described. Yet I was repeatedly told that my very classic symptoms of akathisia were not akathisia and not related to medications. The Barnes Scale, a standardized tool to assess drug-induced akathisia, was never administered. And the very behaviors that I’d been reporting and that were unfolding right before the physicians’ eyes are known and dangerous medication side effects, included in manufacturers’ warnings. So why then did so many doctors fail to recognize this? Why did they continue to prescribe yet more medications?
By this point, I had lost my sense of human connection and self. I felt completely lobotomized. The collateral damage on my children and husband was and is inhumane.
Spinning Out: Let’s Go Cold Turkey. What Could Possibly Go Wrong?
My physical/cognitive/mental health continued to spin out of control on the medication merry-go-round. In August 2016, I was admitted to a psychiatric unit from the ER due to severe confusion, pacing akathisia, and dystonia. Then, the uninformed doctor there forced an abrupt discontinuation of the polypharmacy cocktail I had wound up on in the name of “safe” tapering. I went cold turkey off of four psychotropic medications overnight. This severely shocked my CNS. Over the next few weeks, I experienced what felt like seizures and had difficulty forming words, severe vertigo, worsening cognitive function, visual disturbances, racing heart, auditory hallucinations, and more terrifying symptoms. Six weeks later, fearing for my life as I spiraled into mania, psychosis, and suicidality from this abrupt cessation, I sought reinstatement of some of the medications. Doctors accused me of “drug-seeking.” It’s not that I wanted to be on any of these poisons ever again; I was simply trying not to die.
The partial reinstatement did stabilize me a bit.
Then, while I was at an outpatient facility only one month later, I was again rapidly tapered off the polypharmacy cocktail. Originally, I understood, the withdrawal program was to be completed over 15 days. I have since learned that my rapid detox was longer and more intense than the prescribed protocol. According to my medical records, I received 23 days of treatment, which included the administration of daily six-hour infusions of IV NAD+ (a coenzyme necessary for metabolism) with B complex and amino acids. I later learned that the dose I was given was significantly greater than the maximum standard dose and was provided at too fast a drip rate. The treatment course was also many times longer than is typical and was done without proper methylation support.
This treatment protocol is purported to protect the brain and ease medication withdrawal syndrome. However, this was not at all what happened to me. I had a severe, utterly catastrophic response to it, inducing permanent and profound physical disability. During the IV NAD+ administration, I experienced extreme brain burning, increased heart rate/blood pressure, auditory hallucinations, seizures, extreme agitation, terror, tremors, fever, hypomania, worsened akathisia with pacing, violent dystonia, hand clawing, delirium, jerking and twitching, and homicidal and suicidal ideation. Most horrifically, the severe adverse reaction provoked me to make an impulsive, akathisia-induced suicide attempt.
I now understand that, with my pre-existing mitochondrial issues, a suspected underlying connective tissue disorder, and years of cumulative toxicity (both medication-related and environmental), NAD+ would not only not help me, but would be likely to have severe adverse effects. Genetic/ epigenetic researcher Bob Miller, among others—whose work focuses on Lyme patients and others with complex chronic diseases—has said in an interview that for some, NAD+ treatment causes a destructive process in which certain molecules in the body start behaving in destructive ways. This process seems to have accelerated my mitochondrial dysfunction, which led to extensive connective-tissue damage and progressive collapse of my musculoskeletal system.
No provider recognized this serious contraindication with their recommendation that I be given NAD+. Instead, they touted the opposite, claiming it to be neuroprotective for all.
The Results of Polypharmacy and Failed Treatments
As I say, I have experienced profound progressive connective tissue destruction since receiving the IV NAD+. At the age of only 55, I am now non-ambulatory, bed-bound and requiring full physical care in an assisted-living facility. This has left me unable to bathe or dress myself. I have difficulty feeding and swallowing. I have very limited use of my hands; my manual dexterity is poor. I also have profound autonomic nervous system dysfunction and cannot tolerate even supported sitting. It feels as though my entire spine has collapsed, with bone on bone-discs and other supportive connective tissue severely compromised. My tendons and ligaments feel too lax systemically throughout my body, head to toe—my feet now curl and bend in ways that they should not.
My upper palate has fallen and my lower jaw swings so much so that it often feels like I’m being choked. Speech articulation is difficult because of the laxity in my oral cavity. I have systemic collagen and cartilage loss. My internal organs don’t feel supported and I’m experiencing prolapse. I am right-side lying 24/7, propped up at an angle and need assistance repositioning my body. Toileting is difficult. My vascular and lymphatic systems have been severely affected. I have full body-tissue swelling, like an exploded baby diaper.
It feels as if the structural integrity of my connective tissues, the glue that holds *everything* together, is gone…like chewing gum on hot pavement or stretched-out pantyhose. I quite literally feel as if I’m melting from the inside out. Additionally, I have a constant, severe acid-burning sensation throughout my body and deep bone pain, head pressure, and central vision and auditory processing issues.
And Yet They Insist It Was All in My Head
It has been a grueling 39 months since that IV NAD+ and rapid taper off toxic medications. During this period, my mental and cognitive state has steadily and dramatically improved. I no longer have any psychiatric symptoms and my personality has fully returned. I am once again gentle, kind, funny, thoughtful, and empathetic.
Doctors kept insisting that the extreme cognitive and behavioral changes I experienced, beginning with that original adverse reaction to gabapentin, were signs of an emerging, intrinsic psychiatric illness. They had wanted me to continue on various psychotropic medications and strongly recommended that I seek treatment in a long-term inpatient psychiatric facility for my “severe mental illness.” If they had been correct in their assessment, I would not have experienced the dramatic return to a healthy mental and cognitive state that I now enjoy despite declining their medication/treatment.
But I never had the emerging severe psychiatric illness the doctors said I had. Rather, the perverse neuropsychiatric manifestations were actually triggered by repeated misdiagnosis and careless polypharmacy. No question: The toxic effects of medications caused these problems.
But my misinformed doctors told my family that I’d become perversely mentally ill. Because of their ignorance, my family believes that I abruptly lost my mind at the age of fifty. When I rejected the false diagnoses and refused further interventions (i.e., re-starting psychotropic medication), doctors labeled me non-compliant. This caused my family to believe I didn’t care enough about them to seek “treatment.” In fact, it is because I love them so deeply that I refused treatment. I knew my decision would appear non-compliant, but had I gone back on the poisons that induced this catastrophe in the first place, I would never have regained my mental and cognitive health. I may even have lost my life.
Speaking My Truth
Without an authentic understanding of what happened to me, how are my children supposed to process this trauma? That is why I wrote this essay: To speak the truth about what happened to me.
In today’s world, physicians are grossly misinformed regarding the very real risks of pharmaceuticals, especially the grave dangers of polypharmacy and adverse drug reactions. Our medical system does not look for the root causes of our symptoms and is dangerously broken. Patients are dismissed and gaslighted when reporting negative side effects and misdiagnosed with psychiatric illnesses instead of medication toxicity.
I was systematically poisoned into oblivion by modern medicine and labeled with perverse psychiatric illness that did not exist prior. This absolutely never should have happened to me, to my husband, nor to my children.
Over the last year or so, I have had multiple objective tests completed that verify my cognitive, psychological, and physical status. As a result, four separate doctors concluded that my past decline was due to medical error and polypharmacy. While this acknowledgment is validating, it does not change the fact that my family is now gone, and I am left permanently physically disabled and in palliative care, all due to a fatally flawed medical system and its love affair with prescription drugs.
What They Prescribed
Following are most of the medications I was prescribed for my complex constellation of symptoms of Lyme disease, co-infections, CIRS, etc., with no regard for their potential toxicity to my liver, brain, or organs. Many of these were extended courses of drugs, taken long-term and given concurrently. Looking back, I cannot believe that I survived. This is what medical polypharmacy looks like. It is not one or two drugs; it is dozens.
Augmentin (amoxicillin and clavulanate potassium)
Deplin/Duleek-DP (l-methyl folate)
Rocephin (ceftriaxone ) – IV via Hickman catheter
Azithromycin – IV via Hickman catheter
Bicillin (penicillin G benzathine) – IM injection
Vancomycin – IV peripheral
NAD/B complex – IV
Meyers cocktails – IV
Glutathione – IV
Phosphatidylcholine – IV
Vitamin B12 – Subcutaneous Injection
Low-dose naltrexone (LDN)
Cipro (ciprofloxacin) – IV
Levaquin (levofloxacin) – Repeated and extended courses
Avelox (moxifloxacin) – Repeated and extended courses
Medrol (methylprednisolone) – Given concurrently with fluoroquinolones
Synarel (nafarelin acetate)
VSL-3 (bifidobacterium, lactobacillus, and streptococcus probiotics)
Ursodiol – Given because of Rocephin
Ferrous gluconate (iron)
Nexium (esomeprazole magnesium)
…And HUNDREDS of oral herbal medicines and supplements
The cascade into unnecessary and catastrophic psychotropic polypharmacy included these drugs:
Editor’s Note: This piece was adapted from Laurie’s essay originally published anonymously on the website Hormones Matter, November 13, 2019. That version was edited by Chandler Marrs.
Mad in America hosts blogs by a diverse group of writers. These posts are designed to serve as a public forum for a discussion—broadly speaking—of psychiatry and its treatments. The opinions expressed are the writers’ own.
Doctors from Mars! They’re busy prescribing in your community today! Catch them now before they return to their own planet!
Trying to log i to make my OWN comment, doesnt seem to work. Anyhow, similar story to mine, but no Cipro, thank god. Zoloft caused my baby Steven to be born with half a heart (HLHS), he died after three days. my friend, also on Zoloft, in a very, small town, also had the same defect in her baby. TGA Australia, refused to list his death as a zoloft death I tried three times, and me being an ex pathologist didnt help their corruption. My problem also toxins from moulds. Lyme also, but getting out of the toxins, fixed my immune system, no more lyme. I also recovered, three years to taper, then realising my only problem was LOW B12 and MTHFR, and poisoning from an illegally built house (western Australian government housing, all seem to be illegal builds). ANyhow, thankyou so much for telling your story.
Your mind came back but not your body. Not uncommon Laurie. Check out the archives for beyondmeds.com and read Monica’s story.
“This caused my family to believe I didn’t care enough about THEM to seek ‘treatment.'”
I read lines like this and feel sick. God bless you, Laurie, it’s not at you but how selfishly many families of the “mentally ill” behave.
It’s all about them–though you’re the one in torment. And they take the word of a stranger in a lab coat over the family member they should know and love. 🙁
Doctors are known to make mistakes, but they refuse to consider this. Too inconvenient.
I also had to get out of a marriage, where the husband loved the mad diagnosis. Justified his abuse. And three siblings now on antidepressants. As for valium, I also can not tolerate that. It killed my father in 1967, I am convinced of it. He suicided, it sent him crazy, just like it did me. He trusted doctors, I dont.
I found this statement interesting
“Valium was extremely problematic for me. I experienced an immediate adverse reaction to it with increased agitation and pacing on the very first dose.”
I got ‘spiked’ with benzos and then the Community Nurse wrote down as part of his justification for locking me up and having me force drugged that I was “agitated and pacing”. So they ‘spike’ you with the drugs and then use the effects of that spiking to remove your human rights and start forcing the drugs down your throat. And by conspiring to pervert the course of justice over the ‘spiking’ they can slander a person as mentally ill too. Perhaps if they didn’t need to plant a knife on me for police to find they wouldn’t have needed to spike me in the first place, and then the risk of police shooting me for having a knife that was panted on me and my ‘agitation’ when they jumped me with their tazers ready …….and then they claim i’m the one that’s insane and requires drugs?
What goes through these peoples heads when they see that list of drugs you were put on Laurie? I mean something as simple as Cladosporium in the Air Conditioning unit at your workplace might have been the ’cause’, though the immediate knee jerk reaction is Depression? I’m at a loss to understand how something like this can happen. Though I too find myself without any family, home, career……. as a result of the need to ‘fuking destroy’ me to conceal the truth with falsehoods. And don’t be expecting anyone to stand up and say this is wrong anytime soon, it’s just so much easier to blame the victim.
One of your Doctors wasn’t called Graham Young by any chance? (see the Young Poisoners Handbook)
I also can not tolerate valium. I run like a racehorse on a tiny dose. Killed my father in 1967, I am sure of that now. That was they year they introduced valium in Australia. When stupid doctors say “oh valium doesnt do that” I just look blankly at them, They are fools to believe pharma.
Thieves oil, when nebulized will get rid of the spores the mold was using to replicate.
But of course that’s no FDA approved, I would imagine.
Please dont say that Theives oil, will fix a mouldy house. NO IT WILL NOT. You can kill the mould, so what> The house and all its contents is still 100% contaminated with the TOXINS, from the mould. You can not kill poison. Do you have CIRS?
Wow, and I thought I’d dealt with appalling polypharmacy. Is that 65 drugs plus 17 psych drugs? Since I was a healthy young mom when I was medically unnecessarily given my first antidepressant, under the guise of a “safe smoking cessation med,” which led to my psychiatric misdiagnosis.
And this was done, not based upon my request, but to cover up a “bad fix” on a broken bone, by a PCP who was paranoid of a non-existent malpractice suit. I was only given 15 psych drugs – albeit in grotesquely over recommended levels, in combination, and repeatedly – prior to finally escaping the insanity of our psychiatric/medical system.
But I absolutely agree, our medical system is broken, and doctors do absolutely deny all the common adverse effects of the pharmaceuticals, especially the psych drugs. And they absolutely are destroying families, not just those who they have committed malpractice against.
I’m so sorry for the ordeal you went through, but thanks for sharing, it’s important. It is truly shameful our medical community has betrayed the American public, by adopting the psychiatrists’ DSM theology, and drugs. My daughter will be applying to audiology PhD programs soon. I hope I educated my children well enough to never outright trust doctors, and definitely to stay as far as possible away from the psych drugs. But the psychiatric propaganda in the schools is staggering in scope, so I don’t know.
God save the decent, and judge all fairly, is my prayer at this point. Once again, I’m so sorry about the malpractice you were subjected to, and I’m so sorry it destroyed your family. It killed my husband, although he had a family history of the big men in his family dying young.
It’s a tremendous shame the lawyers are not taking malpractice cases against these criminal psychiatrists and doctors. God bless, best wishes in your healing journey, and I hope some day your family will garner insight into the staggering in scope medical crimes committed against you. Wow.
It is staggering Someone Else.
“It’s a tremendous shame the lawyers are not taking malpractice cases against these criminal psychiatrists and doctors.”
I find myself wondering at times why this is the case. Then I go through where we are in history and realise there were times when it might not have been viable to hire a lawyer and say “Hi I’m Ezra Cohen and I’d like to bring a malpractice action against Dr Joseph Mengele”. Ummmm, insufficient evidence lol We can’t find our copy of the Criminal Code.
Somehow we seem to have lost our way and have become the very thing we stood against. The people who I knew that put their lives on the line did not do so for what is being shoved down our throats as being a ‘community’.
“God save the decent, and judge all fairly, is my prayer at this point.” I have this as a promise, though for now they are being tested, and oh so many failing miserably.
“Hi I’m Ezra Cohen and I’d like to bring a malpractice action against Dr Joseph Mengele”.
Boans, priceless and so true.
You do realize that most shrinks can’t figure that sentence out so they pathologize it.
How much wanna bet you would really rile their anger, and out of spite would write a one page summary on that sentence?
I bet many can predict a shrinks response.
For starters, it would not make him smile.
If there is a group of people who recognise what is occurring with psychiatry in ‘Western’ countries it should be those who have been through the process Sam.
This is not ‘new’ or ‘unique’, it’s been done before.
And as far as pathologising the statement I’ve seen what can be done with the corrupt practice of verballing being enabled by my State government. And I can prove that they needed to torture me to have me speak to their ‘public officer’ to be able to misrepresent what I had said and justify their further torture.
When did speaking the truth become a criminal offence? When the police here lost their copy of the Criminal Code and began assisting these organised criminals with their systematic abuse of the community they are being paid to protect from such abuses. And our elected representatives become so afraid of speaking out about it that they sit in silence. Yes, this has all been seen before.
And consider Sam, Mr Cohen did get his legal action eventually, at the Nuremberg Trials. Perhaps some day we too will get ours.
Oh so sorry, you did the Chantix nightmare? This story is so well written, and so sad to see so many women medicated. I thought Australia was bad, but hey the number of unneccessary caesarians there is horrific, and since when do you give Cipro, JUST IN CASE?
You are brave and much kinder than I am.
I was also recommended to take gabapentin, so I could tolerate and not complain about my real illness.
In fact, they know full well that indeed we might look psychiatric after taking the chemicals, so that others will then see us that way.
I basically told them to get lost after their recommended treatment.
And That is from the same doctor in Canada, in my city who prescribed gabapentin to another patient to get rid of her complaints, but she then finally went to the mayo where she died in ICU, of her illness but by this time, they had ruined a lot of other parts of her, including her brain.
The medical profession are sheisters, hiding behind drugs. They are legally allowed to destroy you so that you can look nuts.
The last time I was in ER, they asked if I wanted to be intubated, I said no thanks.
They offered me 120 mg of salmeterol. I said no thanks.
They know that such a high dose of steroid will make me bonkers in which case they can then pencil it on my charts.
They can go fuck themselves.
I would rather die than let them near me. They want to win, that is at the top of their list. It’s them who are the ultimate crazy, the ultimate fearful and dishonest.
Your family gave up, which is what doctors love. They do not like families that fight them.
I think it’s an embarrassment to even be a “medical” person these days, as it is all about hiding behind the lack of science.
There is barely any science, so they use random drugs. No they are well versed on the drugs, they know that legally they can hide behind ALL drugs.
They only need to utter these words. “No ill intent”
The “medical society” is there to protect themselves and each other. That is about the only reason.
They risk babies, children, mothers and fathers at their leisure.
You should post your letter on as many sites as possible, even the pro psychiatry forums.
We would not mind if doctors admitted lack of science, lack of treatments, and protected their patients from the harms of drugs. If they simply said “I don’t know”
That will NEVER happen because they are a certain personality that enters this ZOO. And we cannot change a leopard’s spots.
I have been on the receiving end of some of their chemicals and I no longer ask any doctor why I have pain.
I will never ask another doctor for anything that investigates or “heals”.
The trauma from their lies is too much and personally I’m sated thank you.
“Your family gave up, which is what doctors love. They do not like families that fight them.”
Something that was exploited by the Jehovah Witnesses with regards blood transfusions I believe. Doctors looking down the barrel of the ‘families’ lawyers tended to act a little more conservatively. I also believe they had recommendations prepared to ‘assist’ doctors on treating people according to their wishes, rather than “i’ll do what I want and we can commit acts of fraud with the paperwork later” method being used on most of the community.
It might be worth considering this method for our own community. Though it would require REAL advocates rather than these back stabbing sycophants we currently have representing our ‘interests’.
After seeing how doctors behave, I say we owe used car sales people and lawyers an apology.
At least with car salesmen we can make a deal, an agreement and buy the label we like.
Well said. I am a pathologist, went thru similar experience as the story here. When I ask for the testing I KNOW I need, I have to explain I am an ex pathologist first, or I get treated like an idiot.
Then the doctor says, oh wow, you are B12 deficient, you are MTHFR< you do need blah, blah. In Australia now, all you need is the government software, follow their directions only. Doctors ARE NOT allowed to be doctors anymore. I mean they spend a fortune on study, they get paid heaps for drug trials, they are told they have to vaccinate babies to death, by the government health ministers (who have no medical training, but do own pharma shares). First do no harm? No doctors are puppets, they dont want to lose their medical licence, there charade as healers is worth more money to them, that an unemployed honest doctor.
“In Australia now, all you need is the government software, follow their directions only.”
Who needs vaccines when you have the COVID Safe app lol. My antibodies are being produced by my iPhone.
“I mean they spend a fortune on study, they get paid heaps for drug trials, they are told they have to vaccinate babies to death, by the government health ministers (who have no medical training, but do own pharma shares). First do no harm?”
Well, as with the “editing” being allowed by the State government with regards the human rights abuses being concealed as ‘medicine’ (and I note not being spoken about by many of these so called ‘professionals’, though I do understand how effective the threats and intimidation can be), this “First do no harm” actually reads “First do no harm to your bottom line”, but for the sake of keeping it simple for the plebs they have shortened it.
“No doctors are puppets, they dont want to lose their medical licence, there charade as healers is worth more money to them”
True, worth much more. But to be fair it has been the people laying down the laws who have enabled the situation to get to what it is. For example change the Mental Health Act to enable Shock Docs to start belting away at teenagers heads with electricity and no liability, call the changes “added protections” and repeat the mantra to the mushrooms who vote for them, and you will have Shock Docs flooding into your State from everywhere. Because most places are doing away with this barbaric practice, and would be reluctant to allow children to be exposed to such risks, except where there is a few bucks to be syphoned off from the Medicare system.
Why do I get this image of Patrick McGorry walking into the Royal College of Psychiatrists Annual General to do the Keynote to this tune?
“I said High, …… I said HIGH VOLTAGE……”
OMG!, Laurie!….Your whole story above, is TL;DR for me now, but I read 1/3 way through carefully, then skimmed the rest.
I used to describe my case as “Iatrogenic Neuroleptic Pharmaceutical Cerebral Cognitive Impairment Malfunction”, but today I simply use, “Iatrogenic Neurolepsis”…. I actually got a *NURSE* to enter my Iatrogenic Neurolepsis diagnosis into my formal medical record, because she didn’t know what “iatrogenic” meant! That list of Rx drugs is almost not credible. You need a team of good lawyers to assist you in several tort claim lawsuits. That’s the best way to overcome the blatant systemic anosognosia as regards all the Rx drugs. They are not the “fake news” euphemism “meds”, or “medications”, rather, drugs are drugs are drugs are drugs are drugs are drugs are drugs are drugs are drugs, etc., NOT MEDS!….
KEEP UP the GOOD WORK
So true isnt it? There is no way to sue them. But we need to be honest, tell the truth about this CORRUPTION< with internet, we can now.
I have been off 4 years of those psychiatric drugs. But I am still not at my baseline. And I am 30.
I am irritated, agitated l, cranky all the time.
I can sleep now , but can’t feel fresh. I am tired, congested, head pressure.
I feel happy for you, but is there a way that I could be helped?
I have my thread at SA with medication history.
I always have a feeling that I have lost my adult life before a start.
Been on at least one psych drug from age 18 to 44.
Off now since 08/31/17.
My mind is clearer despite brain damage and spaciness. But my body is a wreck. I can no longer digest food normally.
At 46 I am forced to live with relatives because my SSI check won’t cover rent and no HUD anywhere. Exhausted from malnutrition since my body won’t absorb vitamins or minerals so I remain unemployed despite recent job openings that won’t be there once this scare is over.
I don’t know what I will do when my parents are gone.
I’ve been off psychiatric drugs for the past twenty years
I wasn’t really on them before that because I wasn’t going to take them “voluntarily”.
I haven’t taken any psychiatric drug since the last time I was discharged from the “hospital”.
It can be done. One just needs to register the fact that these chemicals aren’t good for you, and that they are more likely to harm you than to “heal” you, and that they can, in fact, even kill you.
“Mental health” may be a scam, but dope is still dope, and dope isn’t good for your health.
I AM 62, on and off the horror pills for about 20 years. Tapered off them over 3 years. Found out the problem was poisoning (CIRS, same as the author). MTHFR genetics, HLA DR DQ mould susceptible genetics. I am happy, and enjoying life. You are 30? You have your whole life ahead of you http://www.survivingantidepressants.org or angela coral eisenhauer on facebook. I even did software testing, joined facebook developers team and helped on google translate, ad more (all unpaid of course). I want honesty to get out there, and wow, it is. I think this C vax, is the last death throes, of a corrupt regime.
Bless you, Laurie
You are not alone in this… doesn’t help I know.
Don’t know about the rest of you but I’m fed up of this dollars over lives bullcrap. Stock market plunging, retail closed, the coming culling of the ‘weak’…and what is our gov’s most pressing concern? His reelection. So lets give trillions of dollars to the fat cats who bought back their own stock shares to boost their bottom line…while us plebs are told to tug on those bootstraps. Personal responsibility!! Lazy crazy old poor people just go die already…
It’s amazing to me, when Bernie talks about Medicare for all he gets the MSM chant: “how are you gonna pay for that??”
Boeing, the dirty frackers, and wall street seem to have no problems getting helecopterted fiat goverment dollars.
Time to revolt. Time for stories like Laurie’s to end.
For those of you who are new – This is what psychiatry is doing and covering up as ‘mental illness’:
Oh Ms. Uhler…this made me so uncomfortable in it’s familiarity & bleak recitation of the facts. This is familiar to me…X 1000…and with children involved…..
I too was ‘discovered’ to be mentally-ill-for-life in my 50’s, presenting with insomnia as a result of financial anxiety….and great insurance. You clearly know the next 11 years.
I achieved a freak, uber-rare self-rescue after a Lamictal-caused anaphylaxis ‘event’, able to marshall my coherence the 2 hours it took to (carefully) blackmail them into doctor-guided titration/withdrawal and changed/removed diagnosis (paperwork!)..taking over 2 years.
It wasn’t over.
I’ve had 19 seizures in the 4 years since…but they have been absent for the past 11 months.
RxISK.org, 4-part series-2018, ‘The Unicorn”.
You have broken my heart….you have accomplished such scorching honesty regarding being passed around & comprehensively exploited….and you have given me valuable perspective, something I cling to when it sometimes gets dark.
Thank you and I wish you peace & strength…..the best I can do.
Someday I will have the strength to tell my polypharmacy story as you have done. Thinking of it, much less writing about it, is too painful. Healing emotionally and physically takes a very long time, but is possible. I found Holocaust survivor Eva Kor to be an inspiration on my healing journey. She was a Mengele twin on whom he experimented. Please know you are not alone.
You had trusted the medical professionals and had essentially and unwittingly given away your power to them, just as I had. I found healing in taking that power back and no longer giving it away. I learned how to care for my own health and was very careful who and what I chose to believe. I stopped all drugs in 2016 and I have made amazing strides in regaining my health. Keep working toward health and wellness and don’t give up.