My Mood as Room by Calvin May

I suffocate in the heat of my pitch black room.
I cannot find the door.
And cut my feet on the broken glass strewn
All over the floor.
But I am not blind.
I stare endlessly at the memories
Boiling behind my eyes.
And though they make me bleed
Sitting amongst them grants me
Greater peace.
Than I would find
If I stumbled through the door
Escaped the memories strewn
All over the floor.
Only to scream ā€œWhy?ā€
Upon discovering that all of life
Is not just any kind of room
But an engine room
That turns seconds into suffering
One tick tock at a time.

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