The man charged in the 2012 mass shooting at a movie theater in Aurora, Colorado believed that he was mentally ill with a “broken brain” that could not be truly fixed. After “neuroscience” had failed, James Holmes wrote in his journal which has been posted on BuzzFeed, the only possible escape would be through “mass murder at the movies.”
Holmes has been charged with 12 counts of murder and 70 counts of attempted murder. “The notebook was mailed to Lynne Fenton, a University of Colorado psychiatrist whom Holmes had been seeing in the months leading up to the shooting,” reported BuzzFeed.
In a section of his journal titled “Insights into the Mind of Madness,” Holmes wrote that he had dysphoric mania, Asperger’s syndrome or autism, ADHD, schizophrenia, generalized anxiety disorder, psychosis, and restless leg syndrome, and noted that he’d first become obsessed with killing people 10 years earlier.
Holmes also wrote, “So anyways, that’s my mind. It is broken, I tried to fix it. I made it my sole conviction, but using something that’s broken to fix itself proved insurmountable. Neuroscience seemed like the way to go but it didn’t pan out. In order to rehabilitate the broken mind my soul must be eviscerated. I could not sacrifice my soul to have a ‘normal’ mind. Despite my biological shortcomings I have fought and fought. Always defending against predetermination and the fallibility of man. There is one more battle to fight with life. To face death, embrace the longstanding hatred of mankind and overcome all fear in certain death.”
Here’s What James Holmes Wrote In His Notebook Before The Aurora Theater Shooting (BuzzFeed, May 27, 2015)