My Hospital Discharge Summary: An Intriguing Work of Fiction


I want to share some thoughts on the contents of my latest discharge summary from hospital and some implications that have become apparent. The first paragraph of the letter starts: “Anthony Murray, 37-year-old male, resident of Woy Woy, et cetera” followed by a short rundown of admittedly indispensable vital statistics, yet it’s followed by two of the most inventive pages of literature possibly ever penned.

The remainder of the first page is devoted to my hysterical paranoia about Scientology. Now, at this stage, it’s important to make clear that my views on the Church of Scientology have never been particularly strong. Nevertheless, this account holds that I am outrageously aggrieved by some perceived slight committed against me by the Church, and therefore warrants considerable concern.

It was only upon reading the copy of my discharge summary that I began learning of this particular problem, of which I was previously completely unaware. However, my disorientated mind quickly began to recover and realised that, while admittedly I am aware of the existence of the Church of Scientology, a misunderstanding had occurred that preceded an immediate mandatory detention and also resulted in the documentation of a deep-seated and long-standing outrage at the Church.

I recalled a brief intercourse with a lady two months earlier that went something like this: “Why don’t you want to take medication?” to which I replied, “Because I think psychiatry is a sham.” I believe that was the extent of the very brief conversation between myself and the lady, who I later found out was, in fact, a psychiatrist. Needless to say, it hastily resulted in a temporary though adequately lengthy loss of my autonomy. What I find barely fathomable about this simple question and answer is that it resulted in nearly a whole printed page of details about a pathological loathing for and an unwarranted prejudice towards the followers of L. Ron Hubbard. A marvel indeed, but undeniably there it was.

The next page I found just as difficult to believe existed, devoted as it was entirely to some unhealthy obsession of mine with matters pertaining to the spirit: again around 500 words of detail about a confused mind with an insatiable religious bent. I read on, deciphering the text, and again I came to realise how this particular critical flaw in my degenerate character was unearthed. You see, after four weeks of mind-bending boredom within confinement, I requested a family member furnish me with something to help pass the time: the book I was halfway through reading before beginning my involuntary incarceration. Now, of critical consequence, this was a book about Buddhism. Again though, for such an innocuous pastime of mine to morph into an entire printed page of detailed and damning critique of a deep and tortured psyche was nothing short of an astounding feat of doubtlessly a very studious and determined clerk. The output of this unassuming but talented worker truly was, in my mind, nothing short of a creative masterpiece.

I understand that such records are important to document disturbing thoughts and behaviours, which are a danger to individuals as well as the wider community. But I can’t help but muse about the implications of such content if it were to materialise in a slightly less paranoid setting. Imagine, for a second, that this account had originated within the intelligence department of the Khmer Rouge. Six weeks of interrogation, forced detention, and therefore hundreds of man-hours and considerable public expense …. I ask myself what, exactly, was the importance of the report, the personal information gleaned?  Or the necessity, with such problems as those documented, to exclude me from free society for a time? Excuse me for grandiosity, but I can’t see the significance to public safety or the personal relevance of those two tidbits of information. What is their damning significance and how could such findings ever be of any importance to anyone?

If we change some parameters within this context, we can construct a scenario that contains a different perspective entirely. What if the discharge summary were not information regarding 37-year-old mental patient Anthony Murray but was instead recorded about his elderly next-door neighbour, average citizen Joe? (Not his real name; it’s Max.)

Now it comes to light that Joe has always had slight reservations about Scientology and is also an avid enthusiast for the Buddhist religion. These sentiments don’t cause him any undue inconvenience and they’re not particularly remarkable facts about Joe; he has many more interesting views and he’s met other people also interested in meditation. But those two facts have taken on particular significance, as they have become a matter of record to the Australian Government.

It’s now been determined by an expert that these traits are aberrations and, in fact, problems for Joe. Joe’s tempted to dismiss this as a hoax until he learns that his liberty can be taken from him indefinitely at any time, because he doesn’t see a problem with these peculiarities. The advice of the expert is that Joe must no longer hold these preferences, and despite thinking the expert’s explanations are insensible, Joe is an honest and law-abiding man and so, in good faith, will endeavour to fulfill his new obligation. Especially considering that dismissing the expert as a crank and refusing his help will likely be a cause of trouble and possibly detainment. As a matter of course, the expert is highly trained and well-paid, and Joe’s assured said expert has only his best interests at heart.

Indeed, Joe doesn’t understand the absurdity of the concern about his opinion regarding Scientology and begins to conclude that perhaps his sharing of opinions is the problem that’s caused this trouble. So, during his morning walk, when his habit is to speak with his neighbour Anthony, he discovers he has very little to say and starts to feel a bit withdrawn. Anthony is surprised in the change that develops quickly in Joe’s behaviour; he’s usually so opinionated! So Joe mopes around at home most days and after not too long, he doesn’t feel like seeing anyone, as he is a bit worried that he’ll say something incriminating. By mid-afternoons Joe usually perks up, as it’s the time for his daily meditation practice… until he remembers it’s actually causing him problems and that his enjoyment of meditative pursuits is unwholesome.

Joe still sneaks in a little reflection as he sits vacantly in his chair at home from time to time, even though it’s strongly discouraged. He got so good at not voicing an opinion that he rarely says anything at all. He threw away his meditation cushion, it was just too tempting. He just wants his old life back. No matter which way he thinks about it, he can’t ever reconcile the expert’s logic. How could Joe have ever benefited by losing two things he held so dear and had not yet failed him: his passionate scepticism of Scientology, and his joyful daily prayer and reflection? How could he ever have become more fulfilled or live a better quality of life, he bemusedly wonders, by changing two things so insignificantly human about him and so undeniably integral to the man that was Joe?


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  1. Psychiatry=police state.

    Anthony, if possible, I advise you to leave Australia. From what I have read it’s psycho-state is far worse than ours.

    The fact that our health care is still partially privatized comes in handy since you can relocate to another state if ordered to be drugged or shocked without consent and they can’t legally kidnap you there. Or–if not state ordered–relocate to another community where no one knows your past and provide scant details for the hospital/doctors you see there.

    When you have to see a doctor he won’t automatically have access to the records of another system. You’ll also receive better care for kidney damage, IBD and other cruelties the shrinks have inflicted on you. It’s like they don’t care if you die if you have an SMI label.

    • The psychiatric profession does like to drug people up for their religious beliefs. They seemingly believe that if you’re not a DSM “bible” worshipper, you need to be neurotoxic poisoned. My medical records, too, are filled with a bunch of lies and gossip, gotten from an ELCA Lutheran pastor who I’d just met, and his pedophile buddy’s wife. My former religion utilizes the psychologists and psychiatrists to cover up their, and their friends’, child abuse crimes.

      As a matter of fact, covering up child abuse is apparently the number one actual function of both the psychologists and psychiatrists.

      And all this child abuse covering up is by DSM design, which I guess makes the DSM “bible” a child sacrificing “bible.” And thus the DSM “bible” believers are people who believe in a child and human sacrificing religion.

      My medical records also contain other misinformation from sources other than me. It strikes me that my psychiatrists, who judge people they do not know or bother to listen to, thus fill their medical records with lies, are the “delusions of grandeur” filled people.

      When I confronted my psychiatrist with all of his delusions about who I am, written in his medical records (some of his medical records had been handed over to me by decent and disgusted nurses in my former PCP’s office). That psychiatrist basically had no choice but to declare my entire life a “credible fictional story,” that’s how misinformed he was.

      And, of course, you have to walk away from a lunatic psychiatrist who declares your entire life to be “fictional;” and thinks the best way to help a healing child, who had been abused four years prior according to medical records, is to neurotoxic poison that child.

      Thanks for sharing your story, Anthony. Oh, just an FYI, the antipsychotics and antidepressants can create “voices,” via anticholinergic toxidrome.

      But weaning off of them can also create a drug withdrawal induced manic psychosis. But if you can get through that, the voices may likely go away. I’m not certain, if you had “voices” prior to being psychiatrically drugged. But if you got the “voices” after being psych drugged, they’ll likely go away by weaning from the psych drugs.

      Your psychiatrist will likely get pissed if you point this out, however, he/she can’t deny this truth. I’d recommend finding a new doctor, and taking Rachel’s advice to move, is not bad advice. I hope you escape. God bless.

      • From what I have read it’s psycho-state is far worse than ours.

        There’s swings and roundabouts.

        On one hand we don’t have insurance plan driven hospitalisation that provides incentives to keep someone locked up until their coverage expires, so by and large, forced hospital stays tend to be shorter if you haven’t been accused of a criminal offence.

        On the other hand, here in NSW (where Woy Woy is) the usual mantra for tossing you into a loony bin – “danger to oneself or others” – is deliberately left undefined in legislation, with guidelines suggesting it includes danger to your finances, reputation or relationships.

        For a colleague with a bipolar diagnosis what this meant is that when he was feeling energetic, buoyant and chatty and wanted to go out and talk to people, but his mother was afraid he’d embarrass himself and the family unless he stayed home until he was mordant, fatigued and almost mute again, she called his former psychiatrist. As a result he was handcuffed and bundled into the back of a police wagon on the main street of his small town right out front of the store where he bought his groceries in full view of friends, neighbours and acquaintances. He spent the following weeks in a locked ward many miles from home without his closest friends knowing where he was.

        That’s how the NSW Mental Health Act protects the reputation and relationships of those with a mental illness label.

        • “danger to oneself or others” – is deliberately left undefined in legislation, with guidelines suggesting it includes danger to your finances, reputation or relationships.

          Yes, by writing such things as “damage to expensive photography equipment” on the statutory declaration under the section for “communicated matters” makes it sound important. I actually took the three mental health workers and two police back into my home and showed them the 20 cents worth of damage to the photograph, so writing it down as a communicated matter seemed wrong. It was actually an “observed matter” but I guess there wasn’t much room left in the observed matters sections as a result of the Community Nurse travelling back through time and space to make observations three weeks before he met me. Still, frauds are people that cause mischief for many people and those who conceal truths for them are no better. They are in fact also criminals.

          “That’s how the NSW Mental Health Act protects the reputation and relationships of those with a mental illness label.”

          In WA you don’t even need a “mental illness label”, just a couple of people prepared to lie, conspire to kidnap and torture, and a couple of stupid police who don’t give a damn who they snatch from their homes. Plant the evidence they require to detain and refer and hey presto you can have anyone you like locked up and dribbling in a cell within three hours should you wish. Not too dissimilar to the methods being used to execute Afghani citizens and then using ‘throw downs’ to conceal the war crimes. The same AK 47 turning up on various bodies in different situations.

          Is it any wonder the Federal Police needed to raid the offices of the ABC and identify the whistleblowers. I know the hospital did the same in my instance where they found out who knew the truth and then began threatening and intimidating them, which is fairly easy when your murdering people in hospital Emergency dept and calling them unintentional negative outcomes. Tough job and some people have the stomach for it.

          And it will take the victim years to have it sorted out as a result of a State that prefers refoulment of victims of human rights abuses as opposed to the ‘map’ set out in the Conventions.

          I do see the opportunity for ‘torture tourism’ though with the right team of corrupt public officials. Imagine what could be done to unsuspecting tourists whose own governments found their hands tied by human rights. Fact is in Australia there is only an illusion of human rights. And thus torturing other Nations citizens is more than possible. Try and find out where you make complaint regarding being tortured by the State and you soon realise there is no avenue as required under the Convention. Hardly any need to ‘rendition’ people, have them come here of their own volition and we can pick them up at the airport and send them back ‘treated’. And you’d be surprised how many people respond to any complaint with “they wouldn’t do that” and engage in slandering the victim.

          Absolutely beautiful, and you just need the ‘bottle’ to go through with it. I think back to the Community Nurse who knew what he was doing was torture and kidnapping, and was doing it right under the noses of two police officers lol. Well done mate, if it wasn’t for the fact I haven’t seen my grandkids for 9 years as a result of your criminality i’d smile with you. You must be destroying peoples lives on a daily basis and have good people assisting you in that process. You ever ask your boss “you want me to drop this c&^%t?” before shooting an unarmed citizen in the face at point blank range? Because your use of ‘throw downs’ is a well known fact by those in authority who are protecting you from prosecution for your human rights abuses. Thus they are encouraging your vile conduct.

          Is it any wonder that our ‘allies’ (like Canada) keep a close watch on their citizens when they fall prey to Australian mental health services? I think their reputation is preceding them these days.

  2. ANTHONY! WELCOME! I was going to get “first comment” honors here, but Rachel’s comment posted WHILE I WAS LOGGING IN! LOL….
    Anyway, your writing here is probably in the Top Ten for MiA….
    Rachel is correct. America is the 3rd most screwed up country in the world for so-called “mental health”, and the pseudoscience drugs racket and mechanism of social control known as “psychiatry”.
    England and Australia are fighting, and swap places regularly for 2nd & 1st….
    But that’s enough of this Buddhist bullshit….
    Scientology is the only thing worse than anti-psychiatry to the quack shrink pill-pushers!….

  3. Anthony,

    First off, we know those summaries are garbage. Write a similar one and destroy it. Symbolic.
    What a ridiculous question to ask you
    “why don’t you want to take “medication”?
    There is no answer to that, you realize? They are not looking for a right answer.
    If you said, “I’d love to take your drugs, I have gained SO much insight”
    They would write a one page negative summary.

    There are no summaries that say you are free and clear. NEVER, not unless someone got lucky.

    Canada is bad, so don’t come here, but if you can, move. Move to a hip, low crime country or area.

    Insulting to have to move I know. But they destroy people in more ways than one.

    One day, it will come crashing down on them. Crap like this does NOT go on indefinitely. Gods and cults die.

    Look after your whole body, you only ever need to prove yourself to yourself.

      • Lol, I know right?

        I would be SO embarrassed to treat clients in such belittling ways.
        I think some shrinks are bright enough to not ask such dumbass questions,
        questions they were taught to ask, and taught as to how no answer will suffice.
        The brighter shrinks hate to look that stupid, so they simply bypass that which insults themselves, but the end result is the same.
        I bet there are many shrinks that want to disappear when thinking about the whole paradigm, the way they themselves were manipulated.

        The most difficult thing is to “come out”, amid the sect, the cult. To call it as one sees it. I mean, my god, they cannot stand it, because they know the absolute anger that psychiatry would unleash on them.
        They might feel mostly that they might lose their identity, their family, their way of life.
        Not for a minute do I believe that they all believe their own crap. Not even remotely possible.

  4. Psychiatry often double speaks completely normal behaviour and I notice other official people have a tendency to back this up.

    I was raised a Catholic in Ireland in the 1960s and I don’t have strong opinions on Catholicism but if someone in Irish society today had strong opinions (usually “anti”) – It would be considered very normal.

    Lots of people seem to have strong opinions on Scientology – which which is also usually considered to be normal.

    Generally speaking Buddhist spokespeople like Richard Gere are considered normal – even though they might be very “preoccupied” with Buddhism.

    • As far as I can see Buddhism has a lot of merit attached to it and can definitely increase happiness in life. Rufus May Doctor of Psychology in the UK (and ‘recovered person’) uses Buddhist techniques with success in his “schizophrenic curing” Work.

      I don’t have opinions on Scientology because I don’t know what it is.

  5. As you are probably aware Anthony they have difficulty locking people up for ‘exclusions’ such as religious beliefs. So how do they do that and not make it look like they do that? Simply don’t mention it in the critical documents (ie the statutory declarations) and slander the individual in the ‘personal opinion’ pieces of paper. So for example I would write of your “diagnostic category” in the legally biding documents and then write of your Scientology beliefs in other documents like “Outpatient Case Notes” which have no real legal standing. They will however influence other mental health workers in their treatment of you. And if they happen to dislike Scientologists then …….. you in for some ‘treatment’. It’s important to be able to ‘decode’ some of this stuff, for example “acute stress reaction” can be used for ‘torture this guy or he won’t talk’ etc.

    I often wonder why my religious beliefs were not included in my documents, my praying 5 times a day and my constant reading of the Qur’an etc. Of course slander and fraud in Islam are serious offences and these people make a living from it so…. there’s a bit of a conflict going on there. Along with the prohibition against the use of intoxicating/stupefying drugs (eg 4:43 do not approach prayers with a mind befogged).

    ‘Why don’t you want to take your medication?’

    Because I have been instructed by Allah (aw) not to. You got an issue with that?

  6. Anthony. Try not to let the words of others define you.

    You are 37 and I’m thinking there is more good stuff ahead for you.

    Psychiatry is in denial about the current ineffective standards of treatments, etc..

    You are correct to see past psychiatry’s own disillusion! I wouldn’t call it a sham but would say it’s a damn shame!

  7. Hi Anthony.

    Like you I’m a voice hearer from Woy Woy (are you related to my WWH class of ’79 classmate Neil Murray?).
    Like you I’m interested in Buddhism and am very skeptical of Scientology.
    I’m also a member of a Sydney based social justice activist group that specialises in trying to address the human rights abuses perpetrated under the Australian mental health system.

    If you want to contact me to open a dialogue leave a comment on my blog (about anything you like – ‘Hi’ will do). That will give me your email address and I’ll be in touch.

  8. thank you Anthony
    Sorry to hear your story. That is Australia all right. The lies and twistingof truth in these documents. Short hand and sub text. When I was still trying to work it all out (just a phase trying to understand it now I don’t bother) I did some analysis on various inpatient summaries and discharge docs just like this. Phrases repeated over and over labelling and value judgements. Such as “well known to services”..guarded (why would u not be guarded with these people when ur locked up and have 4security guards on you ????) it’s lovely of everyone advising you to move in reality no one will give u papers to move there once they see your label so u are trapped. I wish u the best of luck and all good thoughts

  9. Anthony, so sorry to hear of your circumstances. This is another very dark element of psychiatry that is unknown by the general public – that psychiatrists can write and publish to your records whatever false narrative they choose. I was sent a psychiatrist during cancer treatments for “help” with chemo drug-induced insomnia. I was stunned when I later read the multiple false statements and labels she had published in my electronic records. Anything I had explained to her about my challenging situation with cancer treatments (including falling and sustaining a serious head injury) she twisted into something very different in order to use against me. People need to be aware of how easily a psychiatrist twists the truth, lies and defames someone’s character with impunity. Thank you for helping to expose this egregious element of psychiatry.

  10. Anthony,
    Psychiatry made you believe that your “reflections” are a disease.
    Reflections is what psychiatry participates in non-stop.

    Don’t let them shit on your parade. To talk to them is like throwing pearls before swine.
    So of course if you don’t speak to them, it will be pathologized.
    So what.
    I bought the “trauma” stuff for many years, but am now very willing to not
    use any words made up by any “mental health” care.
    Innocent words like “post partum” are turned against people.

    I was not aware how culted I was and to finally realize that even my “bad experiences”
    were “bad” because I pathologized them. The cult told me they were “bad”.

    No one ever told me that “experiences” are part of life.